On going radiation treatment
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
I finally realized I have not talked enough about how I feel about having breast cancer and the treatment. I started out with a positive feeling about my non invasive cancer, but as treatment goes on the daily reminder of yes I am being treated for brest cancer has worn me down a bit and I am depressed and my attitude in general has been kind of negative.
Each morning at 7:00 am I get a treatment. I have 12 more treatments to go. I am getting some skin burning and itching and have taken to not wearing any bra as directed by the staff. That in itself makes me uncomfortable. Also the machine where I go has had problems twice and they had to reschedule everyone's appt. The treatments are not painful but you alone lay on a table while the machine shoots energy rays at you . For me it is 4 times of about 25 sec and from different angles.
I think telling others is theraputic for me as well as educational for others. I hope all of you can avoid this in your life. I know I am very lucky because they caught it early and I didn't need chemo. I have been involved with doctor care and surgery since August. There are lots of specialist in oncology and you see them often. I have seen the surgeons again recently to check out my incision and I see the radialogist Doc each Monday.
After radiation the onclogist and I will talk about taking Tamoxafin a preventitive medication for 5 years. She already told me there is no data that conclusivly proves that it is benificial in any way. And yet everyone wants to do anything that will battle the cancer and keep it from coming back.
I havae checked out many Cancer sites to learn more about what the doctors are telling me. I was resistent to radiation at first but with a second opinion I have gone thru with it. I see lots of people in waiting rooms and wonder how well things are going for them. I am aware now of the importance of finding a cure.