On going radiation treatment

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

I finally realized I have not talked enough about how I feel about having breast cancer and the treatment. I started out with a positive feeling about my non invasive cancer, but as treatment goes on the daily reminder of yes I am being treated for brest cancer has worn me down a bit and I am depressed and my attitude in general has been kind of negative.

Each morning at 7:00 am I get a treatment. I have 12 more treatments to go. I am getting some skin burning and itching and have taken to not wearing any bra as directed by the staff. That in itself makes me uncomfortable. Also the machine where I go has had problems twice and they had to reschedule everyone's appt. The treatments are not painful but you alone lay on a table while the machine shoots energy rays at you . For me it is 4 times of about 25 sec and from different angles.

I think telling others is theraputic for me as well as educational for others. I hope all of you can avoid this in your life. I know I am very lucky because they caught it early and I didn't need chemo. I have been involved with doctor care and surgery since August. There are lots of specialist in oncology and you see them often. I have seen the surgeons again recently to check out my incision and I see the radialogist Doc each Monday.

After radiation the onclogist and I will talk about taking Tamoxafin a preventitive medication for 5 years. She already told me there is no data that conclusivly proves that it is benificial in any way. And yet everyone wants to do anything that will battle the cancer and keep it from coming back.

I havae checked out many Cancer sites to learn more about what the doctors are telling me. I was resistent to radiation at first but with a second opinion I have gone thru with it. I see lots of people in waiting rooms and wonder how well things are going for them. I am aware now of the importance of finding a cure.
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    You're doing great mom ! I'm so proud of you for being brave and working with the doctors. You rock ! emoticon
    3755 days ago
    Guess no one really knows what you are going through unless they have been there. I had a problem in August and my regular doctor didn't really help me until I went back a second time and then went to a breast special clinic where they put me through the mill. Everything was fine and it was decided I had a type of excema so I just put salve on it and it was fine but I really needed that assurance from the specialists.
    So happy for you that yours was found early. I know the anxiety I had when nothing was wrong and you have every reason to feel down sometimes but by sharing your feelings I think you will find it helps.



    3756 days ago
  • MARTY19
    You are blessed that it was found early. I will add you to my prayer list. Sometimes staying positive is difficult but I am confident that you can do it.

    3756 days ago
  • no profile photo LIFES*2*SHORT
    I fully understand how much cancer SUCKS! But... I have learned to look at things this way... we had to go through it... so we may as well make something good come out of it. Glad to see your positive attitude still shining through... even if going through the proccess SUCKS!! Hang in there girl!

    3756 days ago
    You have to focus on the are experiencing Cancer in a generation when treatments are available and doctor's know so much more than before; they caught it early and you will most definitely beat it; you are going to be around for a long time and part of that sisterhood of women who can say that they won against Cancer! I have not had it, but it's in my family....women like you are inspirational!
    3756 days ago
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