Dieting and bulimia

Sunday, February 01, 2009

A friend and I attended a Curves weight management class on Jan 24th. She has been sticking to the diet and has lost 5 lbs in the first week! I am proud of her. She is frustrated w/ me because I am not doing the diet! We don't have the money right now to budget for special diets, it's just "regular" foods but eating healthy is so much more expensive than not! I'm trying to limit portion sizes instead and it seems to be helping.
My biggest issue with dieting is that I tend to over do it, just like most things in my life. I have a propensity to starve myself and then binge later. Leftover bad habits from my teen years when I swear I had an eating disorder. Dean doesnt believe me but I am confident that I am bulemic. I go as far as to not eat for a day and then eat tons later, I just don't do the whole throwing up thing! I also tend to not eat and then over exercise to make things even worse. So I know if I tell myself I am dieting I'll go back into this negative pattern and I'm trying to avoid doing that. I still tend to do this to an extent but I'm aware of it so I try harder. I am wondering if I need to seek counseling for bulimia before I ever try to "diet" again. I am aware of the problem so that's the first step towards healing right? I just wish Dean would see it too so I didnt have to be alone in this battle with it. I think because it's such an internal thought process he just doesnt see it, plus he's not around Mon-Friday when I have all day to not eat. not to mention the kids keep us so busy with their eating issues who has time to focus on much else!
When I was pregnant with each boy I had gest. diabetes and had to be on insulin and a special diabetic diet. I was great about the diet, too good in fact that my sugar would be out of whack and I'd have issues and weight loss. The docs were always concerned because I always kept losing weight the farther into the pregnancy I got, why Dean didn't see my eating issues then I'll never know! The diet I had to do then is very similar to the Curves one and I know I can do it and I know I will lose weight but I also know I have the potential to make the wrong choices, like the choices to not eat and then to over eat.
I'm sharing this here as a form of accountability and also in hopes Dean will begin to help me with this since he reads this! :-)
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  • HOUSE!
    Amy, Actually 'eating healthy' vs. 'dieting' makes a lot sense to me. Then I again I don't know that much about your background and very little about bulimia other than it is a serious matter.

    I'm sure I am not the only one who is concerned about you but doesn't know what to say, but we'll be praying for you.

    3425 days ago
    Dear Amymck,
    Thank you for sharing your problem with us. You are right to be concerned. In reading the Spark material under Healhy Lifestyle I clicked on info for Bulemia and Anorexia. Please read the one one Bulemia. It states that restricting eating and then binging is a real problem. And having the restricted eating or overexercising . One does not have to purge, having these other symptoms of restricted eating and/or overexercising and binging is enough.
    I am by no means diagnosing you. But the problems as you share sounds serious. Serious enough to speak to a doctor about it. If your own doctor does not take is seriously perhaps there is on in the area who actually specializes in it.
    You could try googling for this. Also I am sure there are support groups for this, its is just a matter of finding them. Again googling Cincinnati support groups for bulemia might help.
    Please be sure to keep in touch with us on this matter. I sugest you post a prayer request maybe asking for prayer for possible bulemia and guidance in getting help so we can all pray for you. and that people can check your blogfor mor info.
    It sounds like you have a lot on your plate in addition to this you have shared a lot of health issues and having to care for your children alone during the week. All of that may play into your eating problem.
    As far as finding it hard to eat special foods; we should be able to eat 'regular' foods as you say in moderation. And getting a few things, like maybe those raw mini carrots and whole wheat bread instead of other kinds. Eggs are a good low cost of protein. Aldi's seems to have fresh vegetables at a good price, so maybe getting one or two that is in your budget and trying to do frozen veggies otherwise might also help. Sometimes the grocery stores have good sales on items we want to include, we just have to watch the flyers.
    Most importanly, please read over the material Sparkpeople has on bulemia and ask your husband to read it too. And speak to your doctor as soon as you can.
    I will try to get more info for you about local help and send it to you.
    You are in my thoughts and prayers,
    Vineyard Teamleader
    3426 days ago
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