Think I figured it out...
Friday, January 30, 2009
Okay, I think I figured it out. My depression, lack of motivation, lethargy, etc. lately... I suspected SAD earlier this week, but decided it was my "chronic hypochondria" causing me to think it. Well, it's got to be either SAD or severe PMS this week. Cause, right now, after having a less than horrible day, I've just sat down from housecleaning and I feel like I'm going to cry. No particular reason. I just want to have a good cry.
I tried out the recumbent bike and only lasted about 3, long minutes. Every thing I exert myself on, I get light-headed and weak. The lights are so bright in here (feels like it, anyway). I just want to curl up on the couch in the dark with some soft music playing and sit and stare at the ceiling/walls. I'm so glad the kids are finished with school work. If i had to correct another paper right now, I think I'd burst out in tears for sure!
Anyway, thanks to Varina, I have a dinner in the crockpot. Thanks to the allowance I give my kids, the house is in the process of getting cleaned. Thanks to my hubby, we'll be staying home tonight (he's a homebody). Hopefully, I'll be able to suck it up in time to do all my running tomorrow.
Well, I'm still hanging out at Sparks even though I'm not following the plan. Big change for me instead of hiding from Sparks... I'm going to blog about it whenever I am struggling, too. I just hope I don't discourage anyone in the process.