Think I figured it out...

Friday, January 30, 2009

Okay, I think I figured it out. My depression, lack of motivation, lethargy, etc. lately... I suspected SAD earlier this week, but decided it was my "chronic hypochondria" causing me to think it. Well, it's got to be either SAD or severe PMS this week. Cause, right now, after having a less than horrible day, I've just sat down from housecleaning and I feel like I'm going to cry. No particular reason. I just want to have a good cry.

I tried out the recumbent bike and only lasted about 3, long minutes. Every thing I exert myself on, I get light-headed and weak. The lights are so bright in here (feels like it, anyway). I just want to curl up on the couch in the dark with some soft music playing and sit and stare at the ceiling/walls. I'm so glad the kids are finished with school work. If i had to correct another paper right now, I think I'd burst out in tears for sure!

Anyway, thanks to Varina, I have a dinner in the crockpot. Thanks to the allowance I give my kids, the house is in the process of getting cleaned. Thanks to my hubby, we'll be staying home tonight (he's a homebody). Hopefully, I'll be able to suck it up in time to do all my running tomorrow.

Well, I'm still hanging out at Sparks even though I'm not following the plan. Big change for me instead of hiding from Sparks... I'm going to blog about it whenever I am struggling, too. I just hope I don't discourage anyone in the process.
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    Get your thyroid checked.
    4213 days ago
    I am glad you are posting about the reality of your life. We all have days (ok weeks) where we feel unmotivated and don't want to do much of anything. I commend you for posting honestly about it. You will find that just doing a little something everyday will make you feel better - no matter how small. I also have been a BIG slacker on the cardio lately and have to find five minutes to do something, even if it's just throwing my Ipod shuffle on while I clean the house and dance around - hope no one is looking LOL

    I pray you find you feel better soon and find something that motivates you. Keep coming back to Spark - we are here for you.

    4255 days ago
    You make me feel like staying when I'm down. Thanks for showing you're human like me. :)

    It should be that TOM here, too. Not doing well at all. Thought that 3 mi walk yesterday would cure the grumpies, but it didn't take care of it. lol Oh well. Everyday is a new day and chance to start over.

    Hope tomorrow's better, and so glad you have a loving family to take care of you. Hugs.
    4258 days ago
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