How Will I Change?
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
How will I change when I lose weight? I'm not sure if I'm ready for that sort of life change. What will people say? How will guys view me? Will the ones who ignored me when I was less-than-thin pay attention to me now? I don't want those kind of guys in my life. Will my friends and family make a huge fuss over it and make me wonder what I looked like before and what must they have been thinking?!?! (Okay, I know I have more loving, caring friends and family than that, but the thoughts DO crop up).
You know, I kind of wonder why I never dealt with this when I was GAINING weight. If I can work in reverse, then maybe it would be simpler. As I gained weight, I paid no attention to what was going to happen to my self-image. I knew that I would always be myself. I knew that I wasn't changing because I was putting on pounds. These issues were never at the forefront of my mind.
This morning I got on the scale and I had taken off the two pounds I gained back just this weekend. I've been so all over the scale lately that it's not even funny, and I'm not sure if I have the determination to really let everything kick in again. The hard part is that I have the basics down. Water: lots of it. Veggies and salad and some fruits. Slightly lower carb intake. I just need to dump the comfort junk foods and get back into exercising. How hard can THAT be?!?!?! Well, I can tell you that it's pretty tough.
I did it yesterday, and I can do it again tomorrow! Oh yeah. I can do it today, too! :-)