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Wind Me Up

Sunday, January 25, 2009



You ever been so down in the dumps you didn’t want to do anything? That’s the way I’ve been the last few days. Now that I’m better, I can only reflect back on what it was like while I suffered through it. “Suffering through it,” that phrase makes it sound more exciting than it really is. Excitement, that’s part of the problem with that state of mind. It wasn’t exciting at all; in fact it was drudgery, boring everyday blah. It wasn’t a total waste of my time though. I did come to the realization that this was exactly the state of mindless boredom, that I would binge in order to suppress in the past. This state of nothingness is so uncomfortable that I would use rather copious amounts of food to mask; push down or otherwise obliterate any such feelings. “Feelings,” that makes it sound too dramatic. That’s part of the problem with that state of mind. There is no passion in it at all; it was drudgery, boring everyday blah. I needed something to wind me up. So I begrudgingly put in an exercise video and mindlessly followed the steps halfheartedly for a while. But somewhere around ¾’s of the way through the tape the moderator warned us we were about go into, “low intensity and high energy at its best.” I chuckled to myself sadistically, "not the way I'm doing it honey." Boy was I wrong. Low and behold, as much as I wanted to continue hating life, I just couldn’t do it anymore I was too preoccupied. This session was so intense and, dare I say, exhilarating that it just took over. It had a life and momentum all its own, and it's a good thing too because I didn't have any to lend it. After a good sweat I took a nice hot bath and came out of it singing. Wow! What a difference some momentum makes.
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  • CGLURICH
    call me !do you want to do some fun stuff?let's go to the art museum and historical museum and take the stairs. lets mall walk and stop at a great place for coffee and people watch.lets take a spin class.when the weather gets warm lets do the architect walk in buffalo and lewiston then have high tea in lewiston ,lets go to jamestown and walk the hills and see the lucy museum.you are one of the most enjoyable people to be with ,everyone always is so happy when they known you're coming to something you make the joy and that warm fuzzie feeling at every gathering.
    come on little rose bud lets go have some fun!! emoticon
    3892 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/21/2009 2:30:44 AM
  • TLN-NOW
    iT'S AMAZING! oNE OF MY MOTIVATING PHRASES IS:

    aCTION bEGETS mOTIVATION.

    oNE OF dEAN aNDERSON'S ARTICLES SAYS TO STOP LOOKING FOR MOTIVATION. jUST *dO*.

    THESE DAYS, WHEN ENERGY WANES, i'D ADD TO THAT...

    *nEVER QUIT!*

    yOU'RE DOING GREAT!



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    3907 days ago
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