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dear ms. leslie... or: literally walking away the pounds.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

my weigh in day. the day i can officially move my ticker.
um wow.
i said i wanted to reach 218 by valentine's day, but i guess i am going to strive for 215.
if i make it, great. if i dont, great.

not a bad weigh in, considering i had olive garden on friday and a calzone and candybar yesterday.
thats right. r. got me a candybar. i avoided it for about three hours after i tracked it in my tracker, and then ate it.

i was thinking about changing my weigh in day. if i eat heavy foods, it is generally on the weekend, which always skews my numbers. i KNOW i cant gain a pound on one day. but today went well.

wow. 218.
i screamed so loud when i saw that number. i hopped on and off about ten times and even saw 217, but no 219.
so, im 218.

i am so proud of myself. i hate to say it but i am. this is something i did, with no prodding from anyone. i did this, in secret at first, just for me. and i can do it.
i finally found something i am good at.
losing weight.

that click has to happen, though. this time last year, i was in the thinking stage. wondering if i could do it. doubting myself but was gonna try.

i get a lump in my throat thinking of how close to 200 i actually am. not that it will change anything.. i wont be a different person, my problems wont go away, but it will be different. i will be, in some way, different.
i am not wasting away thinking about two hundred, though. i am just focused on seeing 217 again.
thats a good number.

the duncanator is hungry. momma forgot his dinner, he thinks.
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    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Great Job on reaching your goal, and on reaching it early!
    3404 days ago
    We're proud of you too Dee! So happy for you!
    3404 days ago
    Hi Dee. First off Congrats on reaching a new low!! That is awesome. I also want to say that you WILL be a different person. At each stage in our journey,I do think we become a new version of ourselves. Your core values and beliefs, etc, those aren't changing. But a lot of other stuff is, and that is pretty great. More energy. knowledge that you can set out for a goal and achieve it. Belief in yourself. I read the 1st couple paragraphs and said, "wow, listen to her!" I am really happy for you and you have every right to be proud of yourself. Much love!
    3404 days ago
  • NLS3628
    Congrats on your WeightLoss!!! Keep up the good Work!!!
    3404 days ago
  • SUZY6281
    You should be proud of yourself. You are doing a wonderful job and you have left quite a few of us firmly in your dust. Congratulations!!!

    3404 days ago
    That is AWESOME! Congrats over and over again. I hope to be where you are by this time next year. You're an inspiration, really! You deserve to be proud, and I'm so proud for you! I hope you smile all day long today remembering that number on the scale ;)
    3404 days ago
    I am SOOO PROUD OF YOU, TOO!!!! You are just freaking AMAZING, Dee! You really are.

    I am so glad I read this blog because I have had a crappy morning. I apparently gained two pounds and just wanted to kick someone. But after reading this, I am just thinking "Dee has come all this way...and done such a great dang job...and I am whining about 2 pounds..." I know it's no fun, but I need to shut up and get back at it!!!

    Thank you my friend! And I am so happy that you are proud of yourself, as you most definitely should be! You are doing AWESOME!!!!
    3404 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/26/2009 1:03:38 PM
  • ~*KIMMI*~
    *doing happy dance* WOOT!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

    I am *SO* proud of you!!! You are totally rocking my socks off!
    3404 days ago
    WoooooHooooooooo! That is awesome!!! emoticon
    3404 days ago
    Congratulations! Why would you not be proud of yourself? It's okay to say it! You should be proud of yourself and you should say it. In fact missy, you need to speak kind words to yourself, believe in yourself more. Believe in yourself and you will succeed.

    Why did R. buy you a candy bar? He knows how hard you're working. Nothing tastes as good as healthy feels. He should be laying some sweet hugs on you instead of a candy bar.

    Be proud!
    3404 days ago
    HURRAY! that's awesome!!!!!!!! Yay! good job! all your hard work is paying off. :D congrats.
    3405 days ago
    Do not EVER say you hate to say you are proud of yourself, woman! You totally DID this! You are amazing and it's YOU that controlled what you put in your mouth and spent those hours with Ms. Leslie. You rock and you SHOULD be proud of yourself! You are such an inspiration to me. You will be in Onderland before you know it. (hugs)
    3405 days ago
    Why do you hate to say you're proud of yourself? You should shout that from the rooftops, tell anyone who stands still long enough to listen. You are making big changes and you should celebrate it!

    I'm proud of you - and not afraid to say it!

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    3405 days ago
  • JBMT08
    YEAY!!!!!!!!!!!! Look at you! the pounds are FALLING OFF!!! I am SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 199 here you come!! emoticon
    3405 days ago
  • KIWI122
    Woooo hooooo!! I am so happy for you!! emoticon
    You are doing this.....and doing this well!!!
    3405 days ago
    Congrats on the loss! You SHOULD be proud of yourself!!!! Way to Go! You will be in ONE-derland before you know it!!!
    3405 days ago
    Great Job! Keep going!
    3405 days ago
    You are just cruisin!!! Great job!
    3405 days ago
  • LADYBUG546
    Awesome job...way to go...I wish you all the best in getting to 215 by valentines day and if you do I think you deserve a pampering session...masssage, nails, pedicure????or all why not...hehe way to go ...dont know you but I am happy for you...great job...Happy Dance time for sure... emoticon
    3405 days ago
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