Thursday, January 22, 2009
I suppose if I would quit thinking of it as a battle, I might actually make steps towards losing this weight.
Portion control seems to be my biggest problem. I'm getting the exercise down, but the food seems to increase when I start exercising more and on a regular basis.
Keeping my mind focused on the goal is difficult - its like I'm scatter-brained when it comes to making better choice for myself when eating. I know what to eat, but I get either bored (of repetative foods) or easily taken off track by social things.
Much of this is due to the "trama" I grew up with.... not wanting to miss a social time with people - to be on the "outs" is a disheartening thing for me. I always want to be included.
It use to be that alcohol and drugs kept me included. Now that I have moved passed all of that - food seems to put me right back into that "social" setting. Not taking the time for me - or ordering the food that is good for me - not making a fuss in front of people or being the "difficult" person. To be liked.
I'll get this figured out one day.