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Starting over...being painfully honest!

Sunday, January 11, 2009

This is not a new years's just a timing thing! As my new message says, my family is basically falling apart! My husband lost his job and is on the verge of being suicidal. Since not working, he has gained back all the weight he has lost and then some. He feels like a complete failure.

I am the worst person in the world to be the one who is supposed to love him and support him through this! Due to my family and upbringing, I have a hard time with sympathy/empathy towards those who just don't seem to at least TRY! I don't want to be that way and that is a huge area that GOD is working on in me! I have a good friend, who is kind of like the mom I never had, who is telling me that God will take care of my husband and I need to look to God to change myself. She is very right. I know that once I make the changes God is trying to make in me, that I will be a much more supportive wife to my husband.

I have never been good at making friends. I don't have that one best friend I grew up with or that friend I made as an adult that is always there for me. I have several wonderful friends who are there for me when they can be. So to anyone who reads this, please only respond with support or constructive criticism.

If you don't believe, such as I do, that God is making these changes in my life or that God is going to help my family get back on track as I said above, please do not respond to this blog. I wholly believe in the Lord our God and Jesus Christ as my Savior. I truly believe that my following His will can bring me and my family out of this dark hole of evil that we are in!

Thank you to all who read this. And thank you to all who love and support me.
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    Jeremiah 29:11 (New International Version)
    11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

    Every Blessing, Allie
    4430 days ago
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    That is a tough situation, and under the circumstances I think you have amazing perspective. It can be so tough to "just trust God" when your life and family seem to be crumbling around you. Your friend's advice is very wise...we are powerless to change other people who are not receptive to changing, but with some help from the guy upstairs we can make changes within ourselves and hope that it will at least be a good example for those we love. I have trouble, too, having sympathy for people who aren't trying to improve their situation. My husband, God bless him, is a very hard worker and good provider. BUT, his health is another story. He has type 2 diabetes along with high cholesterol and high blood pressure, so he has been told by doctors that there is a considerable likelihood that he could die within the next 10 years if he doesn't make some major changes. We have 4 kids, the youngest of whom is 4 years old...which makes that news even more alarming. But every day he consumes a large amount of food, and makes excuse after excuse not to exercise. I have even begged him to work LESS so that he can make time to exercise, but to no avail. I need to follow your friend's advice and focus on making changes within myself, and trust that God will use that to speak to my husband. Anyway, I said a little prayer for ya, just wanted to let you know. By the way, what kind of crafting do you do?
    4465 days ago
    I am glad to see that you are back on as I am. I have found that this place is so helpful and I thank you and Bruce for telling me about it.

    I understand where you guys are and I understand where you are personally. It really is hard sometimes to be supportive even when we really want to be. I fully understnad. In Christ we can all make the changes that we need to make and in him you and Bruce will both find what you need.

    I always say the only one I can change is myself. And it is true. As much as we all what to "change" Bruce we can not. We can just change our selves and home that he sees that changing is going to help him too.

    I know that I am not around much because it really is hard for me but I am here if you ever need to talk or encouragement.

    Love you all with all my heart.

    4473 days ago
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