Starting over...being painfully honest!
Sunday, January 11, 2009
This is not a new years resolution...it's just a timing thing! As my new message says, my family is basically falling apart! My husband lost his job and is on the verge of being suicidal. Since not working, he has gained back all the weight he has lost and then some. He feels like a complete failure.
I am the worst person in the world to be the one who is supposed to love him and support him through this! Due to my family and upbringing, I have a hard time with sympathy/empathy towards those who just don't seem to at least TRY! I don't want to be that way and that is a huge area that GOD is working on in me! I have a good friend, who is kind of like the mom I never had, who is telling me that God will take care of my husband and I need to look to God to change myself. She is very right. I know that once I make the changes God is trying to make in me, that I will be a much more supportive wife to my husband.
I have never been good at making friends. I don't have that one best friend I grew up with or that friend I made as an adult that is always there for me. I have several wonderful friends who are there for me when they can be. So to anyone who reads this, please only respond with support or constructive criticism.
If you don't believe, such as I do, that God is making these changes in my life or that God is going to help my family get back on track as I said above, please do not respond to this blog. I wholly believe in the Lord our God and Jesus Christ as my Savior. I truly believe that my following His will can bring me and my family out of this dark hole of evil that we are in!
Thank you to all who read this. And thank you to all who love and support me.