I am getting stronger!
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Today was a big day for me.
I got up at 6:50 and turned on the television trying to find out what the weather was doing outside. All the news stations were wrapping things up but there were a few little blurbs about the slick roads. I then went outside. The sidewalk was not as bad as I expected. I could tell there was a thin layer of ice over the snow as I crunched along. I inspected my car and it was covered in ice. I turned around and walked back inside.
I am explaining all of this to help you get into my mind set a little bit. When I went to bed last night they were calling for freezing rain and snow in central Ohio starting sometime in the overnight hours. Although I had gotten an email from MIT (marathon in training) that they would be meeting come rain or shine, my mind was already made up. I was NOT going outside to run in the ice and snow and take the chance of injuring myself (of course my disdain for the cold weather had nothing to do with my decision). I decided however that I would at least have to make the attempt to get up and check the weather in the morning.
All that being said, once I did my morning inspection of the sidewalk and car, I talked myself out of going. I went back upstairs and somewhere between me hitting the bedroom and stopping by the bathroom first, I had guilted myself back into going.
As we were all standing outside (there are a couple hundred of us) freezing and sliding around on the sidewalk, I thought to myself.....THIS IS CRAZY! Today was the hardest run of my life. Physically I was stressing my body out because I was worrying about falling (my neck and shoulders were tense for about the first 2 miles) and mentally I was stressed out because I could not understand what was possessing me to be outside in 30 degree temperature with freezing rain pelting my body.
With the help of my group, I pressed on. We ran 10 miles in the slush and ice. I DID IT! When I was finished I was so proud of myself for so many reasons. Of course I was proud of myself for not falling but more so because I had the mental toughness to do something I really did not want to do. After today I feel like I can now say.... I AM A RUNNER!