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Monday, January 05, 2009

pretty okay day today, i think. did 185 minutes worth of exercise videos.
truth is, im kinda sore already. otherwise i would have done more.
eating is on track. its eight pm and i still have about 600 calories to get in, if i want.

found out i dont have to go with my mom to get her blood drawn wednesday, but i do have to watch r.'s nephew tomorrow.

not much to say. kinda down.
was pretty scared today when i thought there was a zombie behind me. turns out it was duncan and i scared him as much as he scared me. i dont know why i was thinking about zombies, but i was.

and, i was so proud of walter. i put his food down and made him wait while i got dunc's food. i thought he heard me say okay. he didnt. i was putting the water down, turned and he was still waiting. then i made him wait some more while i hugged him.

tomorrow's goal: 120 minutes of exercise. hopefully i will get up before i have to babysit and get some out of the way.

felt good to be back.
and, you know what? i am just ridiculous. i can do 185 minutes worth of exercise in one day but cant do a half an hour each day r. was on vacation?
and its stupid.

also, it is like the whole reason i got fat to begin with, you know?
i couldnt find that time to exercise or the motivation, or whatever.
little excuses somehow turn into big ones, and then your whole life is messed up. or off track or whatever.
it is crazy to think of all the time i was able to do on the treadmill at 284 lbs, all the miles, but i couldnt do a stinking mile at 200 lbs? i couldnt do that 30 minutes of denise austin in front of the tv?

i know, i know, water under the bridge---whats done is done...
but im glad ms. leslie makes me do kickbacks a million times in each workout--that way i can kick myself in the butt for all the times i should have been working out but didnt.
this past week included.
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  • SUZY6281
    I know, excuses, excuses. I can come up with a million of them. My current one for not doing Turbo Jam is my husband is painting the room with the DVD Player in it. Sure wouldn't want to move that player. :)

    Anyway, after reading your blog, I've decided that I will make a concerted effort to get up there today and do just that. Sometimes, I just need a push... or a kick in the butt.

    You are doing great, Dee. I am so impressed by your determination.

    3426 days ago
  • KIWI122
    Dee, you don't need to kick yourself in the butt!! You are doing great. I am glad you are feeling up and good today, and that the exercise and food are going well for you. And Walter totally deserved that hug you gave him!! emoticon emoticon
    3427 days ago
    It was hard for me when I first started to make time to do it when the husbands home. When he's off and busy it's so easy. It just became an excuse to use, well, Andy's home and I'm going to spend time with him. I finally decided that I need to committ to me. So I get up, go to work, come home, cook dinner, work out for 50 min then I can have time with the family.
    You recognized you were putting it off and next time you'll do better, live and learn.
    3427 days ago
  • ~*KIMMI*~
    Your comment about kickbacks remind me of a move I saw in the BL workout (I think) called 'butt kickers'. You are literally trying to kick yourself in the butt.... its pretty funny. I laugh like a hyena when I do that move. :D It is water under the bridge hon and its past, but you refrain from making the same mistakes over by knowing, remembering and understanding your past - so good for you!!!!!
    3427 days ago
    It's weird how excuses and laziness can take over so easily, isn't it? I think about how easy it is to do just a little bit of a workout and how lazy I am to not do it.

    Good job for the 185 minutes today!!! AWESOME!!! I have only done 30 and am feeling it. But I am not done! I won't come near 185, but I have a little more to go, hehe.

    Glad that there wasn't a zombie after you! That would have been a downer, lol.

    Sounds like a good boy, your walter. My boy, Doc, will wait but inhales his food after I say okay. Today he about choked and I thought I was going to have to do the Heimlich maneuver on him!

    Glad to hear that you are back :-) You are going to do amazing things in 2009, I know it! You did such amazing things in 2008, and it's only going to get is :-)
    3427 days ago
  • JBMT08
    Miss Dee,
    I HEAR YA GIRL! but sometimes we need to fall down, and then scrape ourselves back up the hill to start going again. I want you to focus on what you will accomplish tomorrow. Your goal tomorrow. You cant cry over spilled milk. You blogged to get it off your chest, and now it is water under the bridge. You know you can keep going. If you didnt know it, then you would not have lost 60+ pounds already. Girl, you can DO IT!!!! 2009 BABY!
    3427 days ago
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