B & A Journal - Christmas day
Thursday, December 25, 2008
All this week I have been telling myself that it is OK to splurge for a while. Not only have I been killing the downward movement of the scale but I feel horrible. My head aches, my tummy is "off" and I have the blahs.
My goals in this challenge were:
1. learn to set mini goals/rewards for myself.
2. do better at staying in the 1000 - 2300 sodium range
3. do strength training on the machines at least twice a week. (I love cardio & circuit training classes but have a hard time just going to the gym and working on the machines.)
About #1. I am doing very well on this. As a matter of fact I just reached a big goal. 15, 000 Spark points. My reward is to feel wonderful that I am sticking with it. Who says that a reward has to be something you can eat, touch, smell or wear. lol The way I feel about reaching this goal is much better than that.
About #2 I have blown this one and this is how I feel about it.
"Here it is Christmas day, the day I had planned to bake & eat those cookies I have been dreaming about for several months and I don't want them. I don't even want to go to the big feast that I have to go to.
The culprit was a ham. I love ham!!!! I cooked a ham on Monday and I have gorged on it every since. My BP is up and I have the to much sodium, my skin is to small for me feeling. I feel terrible! My head aches, my tummy is sick & I feel blah.
Now I read this article. well.blogs.nytimes.com/2008/12
hp and it doesn't make me feel any better. lol
About #3. I am making progress here. I can see though that this is something I am going to have to keep working at.
Summary: I am making progress! I am learning to deal with these insane food issues. I have quit saying "why oh why do I do this to myself" and I am learning to forgive myself for my faults.
My motto for the month of December is: This to shall pass.