Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Why is it SO EASY to form bad habits, yet SO DIFFICULT to form good ones?
Why is it SO EASY to break the good habits, yet SO HARD to break bad ones?

I have been going through several really good days, staying with the program, eating well, doing well, then I will have several pretty "bad" days, "allowing" myself to eat what I know I shouldn't, not working out, eating too much of what I shouldn't.

The up side to this, is this time around, this time in my life, I am recognizing it almost right away.

I was emailing a friend who is beginning her healthy lifestyle journey, and as I got up and went to the scale here at the office and weighed myself on it for the first time since I hit the 139.5 mark on it back Oct. 29, almost two months ago. I haven't wanted to get on it since, mainly because I KNOW that I have not stayed right on track and I didn't want to see a number higher, but I needed to be honest with myself, so I got on it. It is not my friend. That is where the ARGGG!!!! comes from - It read 147. That is a 7.5 pound GAIN in 8 weeks! That is me, gaining basically 1 lb per week! See, this kind of honesty with myself is what I need in order to make sure I don't continue this way.

Its not enough to have 3 "on" days, then have 4 "off." I HAVE to make the effort and choices that put me "on" all the time.

So, I must go back to doing the things that helped me get to the 139.5 mark, that is the only way I am going to achieve the goals I have set for myself.

Addition to blog entry -

I weighed myself – I didn’t want to, but I did. I am up to 147.
I wanted to believe that was a mistake for one reason or another, so I did my measurements, not a mistake!
Here is what I have done in 8 weeks;

Oct 29 Today

Weight 139.5 lbs 147 lbs
Hips 38 in 39.5 in
Waist 30 in 31in
Neck 13 in 13.25 in

It’s was Sept 2 when I had a weigh-in that was 147
So from Sept 2-Oct 29 was 8 weeks and 2 days.
Then from Oct 29 to today has been 1 day short of 8 weeks.
It is crazy to me how quickly I can go from losing to gaining.
I had really tried to convince myself that over the last two months I was maintaining. Not losing, but not gaining either. Well, I now have to admit to myself that I have not been maintaining, I have been gaining.

So, going forward, I am doing just that, GOING FORWARD.
When I want sweets, I will bake a sweet potato (oh I do love the sweet potato). I will do what I know is necessary and in 8 weeks from today, Feb 17 – 2 days before my birthday, 3 days before I started this journey this last year, I will be back at 139.5 (or lower!).
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Member Comments About This Blog Post
    I know you wrote this a while back, but just read it now.
    I appreciate the honesty of your blog.
    I just wanted to share a few quotes that I like:
    "There is no such thing as failure - only feedback; as long as you're taking action - you will produce performance feedback...valuable information. The only failure is to quit.

    Thomas Edison - tried 1,000's of expirements to find a filament that would burn in the electric lighbulb. When asked what it felt like to fail so many times, Edison said he didn't fail:
    "If I find 10,000 ways something won't work, I haven't failed. I am not discouraged, because every wrong attempt discarded is another step forward. Just because something doesn't do what you planned it to doesn't mean it's useless."

    Like Edison, and like an airplane pilot -- you need to gather feedback and change your course the instant you notice you're not heading in the right direction (learn from what doesn't work - tweak your program until you get back on course. Stay positive in the process. The only failure is to quit!)

    "Success is not final, failure is not fatal; it is the courage to continue that counts" - Winston Churchill

    Like you, I want to live a consistent lifestyle. I remind myself to be gentle on myself when I fall off the horse, and look at what went wrong and get right back in the saddle, and go for it again! Perseverance builds character.


    3887 days ago
    Hang in there and don't be too hard on yourself. We're almost through the holidays which will definitely help. I'm staying off the scale right now! You're back on track and will be fine!
    3980 days ago
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