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Pushing myself harder than ever

Saturday, December 20, 2008

As I walk into the gym my personal trainer informs me that he is going to push me harder than ever. My thoughts turned to Oh no can I do this? As he was showing me the "new harder than ever workout" doubts start to settle inside my thoughts, and my old self of 420lbs crept into my thoughts, saying "I Cant Do This Its Too Hard". So we started the workout and within 15 minutes my muscles started to burn like they were on fire my body started to shake and I was sweating big time. I was ready to run out of there and tell him I cant do this. Then the Holy Spirit reminded me that God did not give me a spirit of fear. So I got a hold of myself and said what are you running from? What is so hard? Why are you doubting yourself? Why am I letting my flesh tell me what to do. Well that just got me a little annoyed at myself and I said I have come this far and now that its getting harder Im going to turn and run just like Ive done so many times before and what happened I failed. As I thought about that I said to myself Im a child of God I can do anything as long as I have him by my side. So I turned looked at my trainer and simply said: BRING IT!!!!!!!

I took everything I had inside me and I pushed myself harder than I ever had. When I got done I was sore, my muscles were burning, my legs were like jello and I felt so good! It actually brought tears to my eyes that I did it, I didnt run away I pushed myself and I showed my flesh that its not in control of me anymore. No matter what he throws at me I am going to do and I will continue to push myself no matter how much it hurts because I know now that I dont have to be afraid to push myself that I can do what he puts before me without fear, and without doubting myself why? Because GREATER IS HE THAT IS IN ME THAN HE THAT IS IN THE WORLD! My trainer will see that Im in this fight to stay and with God by my side I can do anything and I will keep pushing myself harder than ever to reach my goal. All praise to my KING JESUS!!!

Footnote: To my trainer: Thank you Todd for your love, support and encouragement. Thank you for pushing me, motivating me and keeping my eyes set on my goal. You are answered prayer and I am truly blessed that God gave me his very best he gave me you.

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    2077 days ago
  • KISSES1959
    God is good and God is great so let us thank Him for everything He is orchestrating in our life.

    I admire you with what you had already attained and what you are about to accomplish this year 2009!

    I support you in prayers.

    With much love and respect,
    4236 days ago
    That's so awesome! You've come a long way and you'll make it!

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    4249 days ago
    Congratulations on pushing through the past and continuing to move toward the future. You are amazing and I am inspired by you. Keep up the great work. Thanks for posting.
    4249 days ago
  • JIBBIE49
    Carol, you were ALWAYS your thin self inside that FAT SUIT you had around you. The fat was never YOURSELF. Glad you threw off that fat suit.
    Roger Gould, M.D. talks a lot about it in "SHRINK YOURSELF". emoticon
    4249 days ago
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