Pushing myself harder than ever
Saturday, December 20, 2008
As I walk into the gym my personal trainer informs me that he is going to push me harder than ever. My thoughts turned to Oh no can I do this? As he was showing me the "new harder than ever workout" doubts start to settle inside my thoughts, and my old self of 420lbs crept into my thoughts, saying "I Cant Do This Its Too Hard". So we started the workout and within 15 minutes my muscles started to burn like they were on fire my body started to shake and I was sweating big time. I was ready to run out of there and tell him I cant do this. Then the Holy Spirit reminded me that God did not give me a spirit of fear. So I got a hold of myself and said what are you running from? What is so hard? Why are you doubting yourself? Why am I letting my flesh tell me what to do. Well that just got me a little annoyed at myself and I said I have come this far and now that its getting harder Im going to turn and run just like Ive done so many times before and what happened I failed. As I thought about that I said to myself Im a child of God I can do anything as long as I have him by my side. So I turned looked at my trainer and simply said: BRING IT!!!!!!!
I took everything I had inside me and I pushed myself harder than I ever had. When I got done I was sore, my muscles were burning, my legs were like jello and I felt so good! It actually brought tears to my eyes that I did it, I didnt run away I pushed myself and I showed my flesh that its not in control of me anymore. No matter what he throws at me I am going to do and I will continue to push myself no matter how much it hurts because I know now that I dont have to be afraid to push myself that I can do what he puts before me without fear, and without doubting myself why? Because GREATER IS HE THAT IS IN ME THAN HE THAT IS IN THE WORLD! My trainer will see that Im in this fight to stay and with God by my side I can do anything and I will keep pushing myself harder than ever to reach my goal. All praise to my KING JESUS!!!
Footnote: To my trainer: Thank you Todd for your love, support and encouragement. Thank you for pushing me, motivating me and keeping my eyes set on my goal. You are answered prayer and I am truly blessed that God gave me his very best he gave me you.