It's been a while
Saturday, December 13, 2008
I know it has been a while since I have written, but life is just so busy. And even now I don't feel like writing a whole lot.
My weight has been about the same for a few weeks now. This morning again 173LB's. I'm just glad it hasn't gone up. Between being PMS'ing again ( gosh it seems like that I was just here) and then we had a christmas party last night. And let me tell you, those Peanut clusters and apple dumplings and all the other desserts are just to good. I was actually miserable last night. I wanted to puke, that's how full I was. I haven't done that in a long time. And the bad thing is I brought dessert home. Thinking it would be for my DH, but he is already gone this morning to do his volunteer work and now the stuff is in my fridge and very loudly calling me name. I know I can't ignore it. I know I will give in. And it doesn't help that my kids are driving my bonkers. I started reading this book by Dr. Leman, Have a new kid by Friday. Well, it makes a lot of sense, and I really like it, but it kinda confuses me too because I don't know what to do in certain situations and then I'm afraid to do the wrong thing. I'm just tired of yelling at them constantly and feeling like a looser, because they won the battle and got me yelling again. And also I'm tired of having to tell these kids things more then once. I mean if I would have done that with my parents.... well that's just it, I wouldn't have, I knew better. And I never got spanked, I just had that respect that kids now a days are lacking.
Anyway, laundry is waiting. So hopefully I will see you all soon again.