Facing the Scale
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
I bit the bullet this morning and weighed myself. As I stepped on the scale I had a brief moment of optimism. Maybe, just maybe, I hadn't gained since my last weigh-in. Well, the scale was brutally honest with me and spit back a whopping 132.5.
It's not that this number is so massive. It could be a lot worse. It is just so defeating to see the number creeping back up. Not only have I gained back 5 pounds since my lowest weight of 127.5, but I am still 7.5 pounds from my goal.
I'm not exactly sure what caused me to gain back some of the weight. Was I pushing myself too hard? Is my goal unattainable? I know I started to revert back to my old eating habits, but the question is why?
I think part of the problem is that I was restricting my calories a little too much. Instead of eating in the 1250-1550 range, I think I should aim for 1500-1800. Hopefully eating a bit more will help me feel less deprived and keep me on a slow and steady pace. As long as I continue to work out regularly, I think I will still be able to lose (albeit slowly) with this daily intake.
Another reason for the gain is that I tend to get lethargic and slightly depressed as the weather turns cold and dark. This is just something I have to deal with and fight as much as possible - not only for my physical health, but also for my mental health.
I would really like to get back to 130 before the New Year so that I only have 5 pounds to lose in 2009. But realistically, I think I will be doing pretty well if I can just maintain my current weight. It's time to get back in the habit of tracking my food and it's time to bump up the cardio. I plan to run tonight (on the treadmill because the weather is awful.)
Now that I've faced my fear of the scale, it's time to get to work! I will keep plugging away at it until I reach my goal.