I am here

Sunday, December 07, 2008

Ok ... taking a deep breath and actually posting a blog on here! I discovered this site months ago but have not taken full advantage off all it has to offer. Mostly because I am afraid, but also because I "spread the spark" and now others know what I am attempting to do. Once my friends and family know my plan for weightloss, then I lose it (not the weight, unfortunately, but IT) ... I shut down, because I think I put all of this pressure to succeed on my shoulders. Rather than try and "fail" I stop altogether. You can't fail at something you don't do, right? *rolling eyes* I have spent my entire life worrying about what others think of me and about me and the time has come to stop. Who, by worrying, can add even one hour to his life? Not me ...

I have an extreme amount of weight to lose ... am an emotional/stress eater ... have been dragged through a very low valley these past couple of months ... and battle clinical depression. *Whew* That is a lot, isn't it? So ... I am reaching out to Spark - I am a member of a few Spark teams, but no one really knows me. It is hard for me to just jump in and join, but I know I need friends and accountability partners. So ... I am going to do my best to be around here more.
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  • BUSMOM27
    I hate telling people that I am "dieting". Then I feel that people are judging me for whatever food I put in my mouth. People who don't have a weight problem really have no idea what we go through. Right now, let's take some baby steps and rely on God to catch us. emoticon
    3426 days ago
    Welcome! I know how you feel with no wanting to put myself out there too much. I have tried losing weight in the past, announced it to family members that I was on a "diet", and then failed miserably at my attempts. I found though that I was doing it for all the wrong reasons...I wanted to compete with a relative that I was envious of, or my husband had made a snarky comment that hurt my feelings. This time I am doing it for me. I no longer am married to the snarky husband and I have discovered that I like me enough to make this happen. I want to be happy with myself and even though I like the "inside" me, the outside needs a whole lotta work. Consider me one of your accountability partners if you're interested. I need a good kick in the pants sometimes too!

    4428 days ago
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