Time for an update...

Friday, December 05, 2008

My ticker has been standing still for a few months now. It mocks me, and it frustrates me seeing how close and yet so far I am from my Spark Goal. Why? Because I have gained a couple of pounds, but not for the reasons you might think... I haven't fallen off the wagon and I haven't let the holidays get to me. The reason I haven't changed my ticker, and the reason I haven't reached my goal, is because I'm growing a human being inside of me. :) I am VERY happy about this, but I'm just crazy enough to let it bother me that my "goal" is now in the opposite direction of my long-sought-after 150. Don't get me wrong, I am stoked about being pregnant and it was something we were actively pursuing, but I didn't expect it to happen so quickly, and to be more specific, I didn't think it would happen before I reached my weight goal. I KNOW that it's just a number, and that the sensible and intelligent thing to remember is that my goals really haven't changed at all. I want to live a healthy life, pregnant or not, and I want to make wise choices for myself AND my family. So why am I so frustrated to know that that blessed number is going to start going up again?

To remove ANY shades of doubt gentle reader, hear this: I LOVE being pregnant, I am blessed and privileged to get to bring another beautiful child into our family and I wouldn't trade this baby or this experience for ANYTHING in the world. But as with most miraculous things in life, it's not that simple. It is/will be a enormous challenge for me to balance the "job" of changing my life for the better with my new all-important "job" of being the best expectant mother I can be. I know that the two callings don't sound that far apart, but when high-levels of hormones are involved, things are never as clear-cut as they seem.

Rejoice with me and pray for me, that I will continue to choose the "better part" for myself, my baby, and my family. My health is more important now than ever, and forging a responsible lifestyle is a gift that I can give my children that will last a lifetime.
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    Congratulations!! Kristen!! i hope you will continue to check in to your page and let us all know how it is going for you and your new baby!! It is so exciting!!This is an honest post.. you have worked so hard on your healthy living and weight loss and to see the number reversing on the scale can be a little unsettling.. i pray that you can relax and enjoy this blessing--- knowing it is normal not to necessarily love ALL the changes that go with pregnancy but maybe come to accept them. I pray for you a healthy pregnancy!!! and that you can find some support on SP with other moms that are currently pregnant and have no interest in going back to an unhealthy lifestyle.. stay in touch!! jen emoticon
    3409 days ago
  • EMPRESS8411
    PRAISE GOD! Congratulations! I am happy for you! I will keep you and your family in my prayers. Your weight gain is the "healthy" kind, lol, and a blessing. What an amazing testament to God's grace. I pray a healthy and safe pregnancy and birth over you, and I praise God for the wonderful things He is doing in your life. Thankfully the healthy lifestyle you developed is the best for your new little one. Many blessings! ~L

    3425 days ago
  • ERIN1022
    CONGRATULATIONS!!! I'm so excited for you, and I completely understand this post. My DH and I have talked about having a baby, and the thing that's in the back of my mind is that I'm nowhere near my goal and if I get pregnant, I'll gain back what I've already lost, and then after I have the baby, how will I lose it again? And yet I know if I were to get pregnant (which we're not actively pursuing right now, for a number of reasons), I would be THRILLED to know that I'm brining a little person into the world. I'm so glad I'm not the only one who's thought this way, and I know that you will be fine. God will give you the grace you need to find time for both of those "jobs" you'll have. :)
    3427 days ago
  • KAYE_K
    Congratulations! God bless you and your growing family!
    3427 days ago
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