Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Unless I am on a diet, I don't eat cookies, hardly crave nuts and have no time for all the stodgy sweet stuff that used to be the bane of my healthy plan.
I have figured out why...
when I am dieting, I totally veer away from the foods that sustain me in peace times, and go into diet mode. eating stuff I don't care for, and constantly watching the clock.
It has finally dawned on me, that if I am to make this thing work and not be back here this time next year, trying to lose the same ubiquitous 30lbs, I needed to get real.
I love root veggies, I love rice, beans, can't remember when last I had soup, or bread, or some of the other stuff I used to eat only when I dieted.
No wonder it did not last. no wonder I could not wait to eat what I called normal food.
I know now, that I can eat the things I like, and still lose weight. All I have to do is plan, or modify.
Oh God, why have you allowed me to suffer for so long, when the truth was so obvious to begin with.
In the last 4 weeks, I have lost 18lbs, (a lot was water weight from a sodium fest the night before I got back on track) and I have not felt like stripping paint off the walls and eating said inorganic matter.
I am finally, for the first time in my life, able to believe, that I will get to a healthy weight after all.
I don't do tough. I don't care for difficult. Even if I have to carry a 10 ton weight on my back, I have to believe its easy, to even think of dealing with it. ,That is my psychological make up. And Thank God, I found a way, to make this seem easy to me, And therein lies my strength.
I am so motivated, so optimistic, so looking forward to where this journey will take me.
What a relief.