baby: 25 years ago today a baby boy entered my life. As all of my children are, he is special. He was bonded to me in a way that is so unique to me. He needed to hear my heartbeat for the first 6 weeks of his life. I carried him in my arms and in one of those cloth baby carriers that fits around the chest.
bumpy: I am looking for more rocks to chop with a target date of December or January. Wasn't really planning this new adventure at this time but I am ready for it. And time is the only thing that we need to sort out those issues that involve $$$ and the future tuition of the baby rugrat.
breathing: "due to circumstance beyond my control", I am no longer rushing. I have learned that I have use RUSHING as a tool to avoid the inner me.
+rushing: a tactic for avoiding the emotions of the moment, of the situation, of the lesson
+rushing: a tactic for avoiding reality of the moment, the presence of others, the love in the environment
+rushing: a tactic for avoiding the consequences of my actions, my words, my affect upon others
YES, rushing to avoid being a healthier , wiser, happier me
+rushing to avoid being accountable
+rushing to avoid my responsibilty to myself
MANY DAYS of rushing between one place to another, from home to work, from one activity to another
+rushing to avoid pain, joy, reality
+rushing as a way of controlling events, others and awareness that I might be inauthentic
YEARS of rushing to avoid learning about me
+rushing to dodge perceived emotional pain or rejection
+rushing to avoid being with me
No I have no reason to rush. I have only me with inner and outer health to explore, to develop slowly.
NO RUSH ZONE... (ouch, can I really do it???)