HELP!! I'M EATING AND I CAN'T STOP!!
Sunday, November 09, 2008
I have been stuck on munch mode lately and I can't seem to get myself to want to stop! I thought I'd start spilling my thoughts out here to see if I can figure out why.
First, I felt like since I had been munching out and gone out to eat that I should have a fair amount of water weight gain and I should drop some. When I weighed myself on Monday I hadn't lost an ounce. This set myself up for the spiral.
Second, I've had an allergy attack topped with a viral infection which has left me exhausted and feeling quite badly. My head has been terribly full and hard to focus. One thing that makes it feel better is eating (or do I just think it does). So this started the week of eating off.
Thirdly, Last weekend I was busy and didn't get anything done to the house. Company was scheduled on Thursday. UGH! By the time I got home in the evenings I was feeling really badly and really didn't want to do anything toward the house upkeep. Stress mounds!
Fourth, My new job was started on a "trial basis" and now I've decided to go "official". Is this the right thing to do? Should I be taking such a demanding job right now? Does this mean that my life is going to continue spiraling out of control? More stress! ARGHHHHH!!!
Fifth, add the fact that my hubby is on vacation this week and there is junk food all over the place! Pretty ugly picture, huh!?!
I cancelled the dinner company because I wasn't feeling well but by Thursday evening I was so depressed I just wanted to cry. I just felt like giving up and eating myself into a coma (which is very hard to do; I've tried several times in the past).
Now I've begun to realize that I've been sick and need to see the doctor; he tells me it's viral and I'm gonna have to wait it out -- Oh, Joy! But at least I realize there was a reason I've been feeling so badly.
Friday I got some time to rest. Saturday I was able to wade through part of my downstairs to clean up and restore order. Clouds are lifting! For some reason when I weighed myself this morning I had lost a pound?! Go figure.
One thing for sure is that I'm getting tired of feeling like this. I don't like the sluggish feeling I get from overeating! I don't like feeling my tummy getting puffy! I need to get my life back on track!
After church today I'm going to the grocery store to get some healthy food in here! I'm going to hide away all of the junk I've been picking at! Maybe I'll make a goal poster or put some reminders back up for way I eat healthy. I need to make sure I make time to log into Spark People for support!
Thanks! I feel better! I can do this!!