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Here we go... yet again!!!!

Friday, September 19, 2008

Sad to say but I am having to start over again with my commitment to SP. I was doing so good and then I got sick again. Between the emotional eating and the meds I was on I had gained a little bit of weight back, not much but a little bit. AND then the hurricanes hit!!!! OMG between Gustav and Ike-- all I did was eat!!! My kids had to come home (they live in Lafayette and Hammond) and brought an extra one with them (not that I minded that at all) but I have to cook more or we eat out more when they are home. Combine that with the fact that I lost one job due to my health and on the same day, lost one of my other jobs due to the massive flooding; I still have no idea when I can go back to that job. Then my doctor and my parents think I should apply for disability!!!! I am at wit's end! I am only 41 and do not want to be on disability but my body is revolting against me.

I am currently being tested to see if I have MS. The other day at my doctor's appointment-- she pointed out that I have the Lupus mask. I am already having migraines that do not respond to any meds and last for weeks to months at a time (the one I am currently experiencing is in its fourth week!!!!!! The fibro is really acting up and now my lungs are giving me grief due to the corn and cotton being harvested.

I feel like I have been eating everything in sight and almost anything that moves.... my cats are on high alert at all times!!! heheheheh But it is just gobble, gobble, gobble!!! I am even waking up to eat and that is sooooo not like me. So, as I said, here we go again--- have patience with me, I am determined to get this right-- it is just taking me several attempts at it. You know the old saying, "if at first you don't succeed, try, try again", well-- here I am try, try, trying again.
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  • NAN71486
    Congrats on trying again. We can't succeed if we don't keep trying! I too have to start again. We are all having trouble realizing that we can't eat anything we want too! So sad! LOL You can do it! Hopefully life will settle down and make things easier soon.

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    3558 days ago
    The fact that you are willing to start over and aren't giving up says a lot about you. You're determined to be a healthier person. I know you don't want to think about disability, but you have to look at the long term affects working is having on your body. My sis-n-law is on disability because of her fibro, but she still works when she can. It makes it a little harder to find a job, but she does a lot of temp work and she likes the variety. It's something to think about.
    3559 days ago
    You have some major obstacles in your path but I think you can do this! I believe in you!

    There is nothing wrong with starting over. That is what yo-yo dieting is all about.

    But maybe this time you will do it for good! Here's hoping!

    3559 days ago
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