Well hello again SP
Friday, September 19, 2008
I haven’t blogged in a long time so I thought I would catch you up on how I’m doing. I know I have been floating around the team boards and looking around the site for a while, but I thought a blog would be a good idea to start again. Life is crazy, but what else is new? Started a new job in June and its super busy. I haven’t been this stressed about a job since………. well ever. At first I had a difficult time dealing with it so I ate. A lot. Especially candy and sweets. Oh how I love you Sugar! And Salt, I like you too. So I joined Weight Watchers in June that has helped some with food. I do have to say that something my WW’s meeting leader says that helped me so much. After every meeting he says, “Nothing tastes as good as thin feels. And remember if you don’t show up, you blow up.” And both of those statements are true. The first one means a lot to me. I tell myself that every morning when my office buys donuts and bagels. When I get a craving I say to myself that phrase “nothing tastes as good as thin feels.” Even thought I’m not at my goal weight, just losing those 9lbs so far I see and FEEL a difference in myself and I think about what it was like before and it feels better this way.
I am struggling with losing weight and getting to my goals. It’s really hard. My favorite phrase only works 95% of the time. I am a horrible emotional eater. And I don’t work out every day. And I have a few friends and family that would like to see me stay the weight I was. But I noticed for the first time yesterday that I didn’t beat myself up for not working out. I started to yell and get disappointed at myself but then I stopped. I told myself tomorrow is another day and I will do it then. I really realized that I have to stop beating myself up. And I do it more than I probably think I do. I always used to think it never affected me or the way I am. Then one day someone told me that I have no self esteem and I said how would you know what I have or don’t have. But I am giving this perception out to people that I don’t even know. And I don’t like it.
I’m not sure if any of this makes sense and I think I started this blog on way and ended up some where completely different.