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Need support, bingeing

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

By the time I went to bed last night I was in tears about gaining weight this last week. I know there are other ways to gauge progress, & overall I'm down for the month, but I was SO FREAKIN' SURE that the scale was going to go down. I would've bet my life savings on it!

In the end I went on a binge to self-destructively cope w/ my feelings, & I'm worried that I'll continue to self-sabotage. Listening ears, general support, & challenges to get me out of my funk are greatly appreciated!
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    I can relate... Sometimes when the scale makes me mad I hide it and try to forget about it for awhile. If I need to I have someone else do the hiding.

    Intellectually I know it is silly to feel bad because of a number on the scale when I was feeling so good about myself before I looked at it but that doesn't stop the feelings of failure. But seriously, forget the number for now. Honestly, if you know you have been doing well there are so many other reasons why you saw a couple pound gain. Take a break from the scale if you can and focus on other measures of progress.

    You have done awesome. Take a look back at all the hard work you put in and what you've accomplished so far. It's really amazing. You will definitely reach your goals!

    You rock! emoticon
    3954 days ago
    I hope my blog helped you like it helped me. I think it's just time to laugh at myself. I tried looking at the mirror when eating, but it doesn't have the same effect. What also helps me most of the time is not eating out of the packaging and put it in or on something else. I have more control that way.
    3956 days ago
    It doesn't take much to start bingeing, I understand what you're saying. Weight seems to be the big factor in making us happy or sad. If there was something I could say to make you feel like you're not a failure this is it: Move on and try not to dwell on one thing that upsets you.

    Yeah I know that people can tell you a lot of things, but sometimes those things don't help even when you want it to help. You, yourself, are the only one who can get you out of the woods. We can provide the compass to stear you in the right direction, but only YOU can choose to use the tools or not.

    You will not continue to sabotage yourself, believe that. You have to believe in yourself and your ability to stop yourself from eating overboard during stressful times. You can do it!
    Keep striving for that happiness you deserve so much.

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    3956 days ago
    I can relate. But, just as you said, the binge cycle is self-destructive so that is not going to help at all. Do what you need to do to stop the bingeing (whatever that is for you) and then re-assess your progress. Make a list of the things that have changed (other than the number on the scale) - measurements or habits, for example - anything positive - and then focus on those daily until your attitude picks up a little and you are not so panicked over the scale (PS. I HATE the scale!!! so I really do understand)
    3956 days ago
  • NATTSO78
    oh no!! That's why I hate that damn scale! In the beginning, I only used it once a month because I was going on how my clothes fit & how I felt - But then I had to start relying on the numbers when my progress was at a standstill. sometimes going by the scale will help you to reassess your plan of attack. That's all you need to do - by bingeing you take two steps back and sabotage your efforts (believe me, I know!) - it's like getting a bad grade on a paper - but you don't submit an equally bad paper the next time, you learn from it & do better! You've been doing so damn well for so long - just look back at what you did before that worked & do that again. also, your body is adjusting to all these veggies you keep pumping in too - maybe that's a reason - of maybe salt - who knows, just don't beat yourself up! find another outlet that's not food (I know, easier said than done) but if you're sad over this, call someone, let it out - take a walk, take a drive & play cheesy music that you can shout & sing to - anything. Food is never the permanent solution, only a temporary fix. Let me know if you need anything - and always remember, there's a panic button on the message boards - it's helped me big time in the past.

    good luck sister!

    3956 days ago
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