Ranting of my reasons aka Excuses not to follow my plan.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

I have had multiple problems with the PC, No time, Exercise is to hard, Can't get on SP due to PC problems, Interuptions, and that old familiar twang.. I am tired of "dieting."

With all of these "reasons' I know why I eat..With every little problem I pick up food... When did I begin consulting food for an answer to every little deviation in my life.

Some would say and I would agree that this is an emotional eater problem. But, I am not sure I even have emotions. ..after all I consulted food and it took the place of love, hate, sad, glad, became my lover at night, my boss during the day, my family I didn't have.

Still, I got on the scales this morning and I haven't gained any weight back that I have previously lost but, for whatever reasons I continue to weigh he same as when I first joined SP so long ago. Well, I have lost 9 additional pounds. Perhaps I like myself way to much, Perhaps I need to start NOT liking the way I am physical looks. Perhaps I should concentrate on the healthy aspect of losing weight. Perhaps, but if, I think to hard on it. I will consult "food".

I decided that when I have problems..whether it be pc problems or the a preceived problem I need to keep a handwritten journal. I am thinking that is what I need to do. Would this help. Some have said it does..Could writing my frustrations down be the answer. Well, I am going to give it a try. Its great to be back online be able to post, vent my feelings and thoughts. But, I am thinking it would be great to do so in a journal when I am not able to get online or those times I conjure up a problem.

I will see... I guess the first step was recognizing I was consulting food of any kind to solve my problems. What did it give me.. nothing but acid on the stomach, that hateful feeling that I had no control, and the wishful thinking of where I could be IF I had just followed my plan.

So, now for this day I will NOT consult food. I will be the boss and control the happenings. At least for this day. Tomorrow will be faced when it happens..

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    keep trying and trying.. that is what i had to do . and now i am winning my battle . and you will tooo..
    hugs from donna

    3486 days ago
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    3508 days ago
  • JOEGIRL6113
    Summer, I am sort of in the same boat with you except that I have GAINED weight. I have been traveling so much, not been on SP, eating wrong, not exercising.......a disaster!!! I think you have the right idea to write down your feelings and see if it will get you some answers. Thank you for the suggestion. I do miss SP and all my friends on here. Rosy
    3509 days ago
    What a great idea; journaling helped me.

    But I don't think you give yourself enough credit for what you've done over the last 7 years, losing almost 70 pounds! I once figured out it took me 25 years to get 125 pounds overweight, so what if it took me another 25 years to lose it (that would be 5 pounds a year and you've done double that!).

    The best thing that happened for me was making friends with Myself, not bad mouthing what I do or don't do, realizing I and my body are doing the best we can under our circumstances! We're trying and we're a team! I gained the weight because I needed an emotional buffer which, thankfully, I no longer need now so now I'm losing the weight. But it's a process, not a time-limited opportunity, must act NOW! emoticon

    Hey, really great Spark Article on weight loss journaling:

    3510 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/14/2008 9:30:17 PM
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