Wednesday, September 03, 2008
I just found out that at my highest weight, I was classified as MORBIDLY OBESE. Wow. Just wow. I knew I was big but I didn't realize I was THAT big. Those are scary words; Morbidly Obese. Morbid. Deathly. DEATHLY obese.
I'm only 5'2" tall. At my highest weight, right around the time of my breast reduction, I was 220 lbs. That gives me a BMI of 40.9, and anything from 40-50 is considered Morbidly Obese according to the medical field. I know that BMI isn't the end-all-be-all of everything. I don't really even think it's truly accurate for me because I don't think I'll ever get below 135 comfortably. But darnit, I'm gonna try.
That really surprises me. I never FELT morbidly obese. I never saw it in the mirror at the time. I look back and, yes, even though I look like I was wearing a fat suit (DANG I have a small head!) I wouldn't think of that as morbidly obese. It scares me because that makes me see how many people in our society are truly obese. I can honestly say that over half of the people that I know are probably swinging on the fence from overweight to obesity. I admire anyone and everyone who chooses to change their life from this situation and takes active steps to do so. What scares me is the sheer amount of people who either choose not to do anything about it or feel hopeless or helpless to combat it.
I know I have come a long way. I've lost a total of 40 pounds, my BMI right now is at 31. I'm about 7 pounds away from only being overweight, no longer obese. I know that I look better, feel better, and am much more confident than I was before. I also know that I still have a long way to go.
I guess that seeing the word "morbid" is a bit scary. I mean, it's death after all. Having never associated myself with that term was a bit of a shock to my system. It feels really good that I did something about it when I did.