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Nutty Bar....

Saturday, August 30, 2008

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I'm upset at myself. I just ate a Nutty Bar and I really didn't deserve to eat that right now. I ate it because I knew it was there and I'm just "cleaning shop" I guess you can say. I decided that I'd start all over again come 9/1. It's like I guess I can eat whatever I want up until then but boy is it easy to pack on the pounds. I mean, I weighed in last fri and the scale read 230lb...how is it at 235lb today???? Damn....well, I was thinking to myself...since I don't want to deprive myself of anything because then at least I don't feel like I'm "sneaking" food...I'm gonna start logging my food in a notebook along with what I do at the gym and just be more aware than I've been lately. I've had a real "I don't care" attitude and it's gotten me nowhere. If I want to eat more junk food one week more than the the other I better be at the gym everyday that week busting my behind. I mean, if that's what it takes. Because this month I totally rebelled. I ate whatever I wanted, I hardly logged my food and I knew the whole time how it was effecting me. The kicker was on thursday when I ate Roast beef and mashed potatoes for lunch...Lunch!!!! You want to talk about the itis' I had afterwards. It lasted for 20min!! I couldnt keep my eyes open! I promised myself never to do that again. I pray that I may fall in love with the gym like I was earlier this year. I don't wanna go back to how I looked in Oct/Nov of last year at my heaviest and it's just too easy to do so. I can do this. With God's help and all the support I get on here I know I can do this.

Til next time...
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