letting myself go
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Oh Boy. Here we are at the end (yay!) of a horrendous month and I have done some serious damage. Here it is, in all its glory:
+2 inches on waist
+1.5 inches on hips
+1.25 inches on thigh
+.5 inch on arm
+.5 inch on calf
12 pounds gained. Needless to say, my clothes are tight. (editing to add this little gem - my body fat measurement is also up by 4.5%. Yikes!)
How is this possible in such a short period of time? I basically threw good sense out the window, medicated myself with food and made excuses along the way. I am posting this for my own accountability but also for a picture of what can happen if we let our slip ups go too long.
Searching for the silver lining:
I have learned that this struggle is never over. I have to get up every day and keep my eating in check. A few days of slacking off is easily correctable, but right now I am looking at 2 months of hard work to get rid of one month's worth of damage.
I have learned (again) that while it seems like a good idea at the time, self medication with food always makes me feel worse afterward. Physically and emotionally.
I have realized that I am truly not presenting my body "as a living sacrifice" to God and treating it as the gift that it is. This needs to change and I need to make the commitment to caring for the gift of my body properly each day. I only get one!
I am thankful for the grace to start over today. I am thankful for the encouragement of my friends on SP. I am thankful that I truly take joy in physical activity. I pray for the strength to stop taking so much joy in unhealthy food!
Thanks again friends. Sorry for perhaps a little too much window into my world today but I really felt the need to put this out there. Maybe it will help me or help someone else say "I can't let this happen to me!"