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letting myself go

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Oh Boy. Here we are at the end (yay!) of a horrendous month and I have done some serious damage. Here it is, in all its glory:

+2 inches on waist
+1.5 inches on hips
+1.25 inches on thigh
+.5 inch on arm
+.5 inch on calf

12 pounds gained. Needless to say, my clothes are tight. (editing to add this little gem - my body fat measurement is also up by 4.5%. Yikes!)

How is this possible in such a short period of time? I basically threw good sense out the window, medicated myself with food and made excuses along the way. I am posting this for my own accountability but also for a picture of what can happen if we let our slip ups go too long.

Searching for the silver lining:

I have learned that this struggle is never over. I have to get up every day and keep my eating in check. A few days of slacking off is easily correctable, but right now I am looking at 2 months of hard work to get rid of one month's worth of damage.

I have learned (again) that while it seems like a good idea at the time, self medication with food always makes me feel worse afterward. Physically and emotionally.

I have realized that I am truly not presenting my body "as a living sacrifice" to God and treating it as the gift that it is. This needs to change and I need to make the commitment to caring for the gift of my body properly each day. I only get one!

I am thankful for the grace to start over today. I am thankful for the encouragement of my friends on SP. I am thankful that I truly take joy in physical activity. I pray for the strength to stop taking so much joy in unhealthy food!

Thanks again friends. Sorry for perhaps a little too much window into my world today but I really felt the need to put this out there. Maybe it will help me or help someone else say "I can't let this happen to me!"
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  • WENDEECOURTNEY
    Great blog, girl! I am feeling a bit like you. We can do this! I love the silver lining part of the blog. Have you asked your doctor if the hormones and the procedure has anything to do with the gain......?????

    I am here if you need me!!!

    emoticon Wendee
    4073 days ago
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