30 day Shred & side note: relationships

I have re-started Jillian's 30 day Shred and now have completed day 2. I'm sore, but still motivated. No pain no gain. I do like her approach to working out by mixing the strength and cardio. I will have to tune into the Biggest Loser on Sept 16 to pay more attention to her lingo and motivation.

I also made an appointment for next week(the earliest I could get in) at the Y for a subsidized membership. I am unemployed and still paying HUGE child support payments so hopefully it will work and I won't be able to use money as an excuse. I am also having alot of problems in my realationship right now, and really really want to be out of the house when he gets home. I'm not sure if it's me changing and becoming stronger or I'm just opeining my eyes to the reality of what being in this relationship is doing to my health and spirit. I do tend to create this ideaology of how things are "suppose" to be and then have trouble breaking free when I finally tune into the reality. I guess I can't let go of the ideaology or the dream of the perfect relationship.

Dreamer, nothing but a Dreamer......Put your hands in the air....OH NO...Dreamer........Supertramp
-my theme song!