Friday, August 22, 2008
OK ... OK ... so I have been MIA. Well not totally as I have been posting everyday ... but at a minimum. I have been stressed to the max lately and I thought I would blog about it so ya'll don't think I am avoiding my plan.
Despite the stress, I have been logging my food everyday for the most part. I have been tracking water and goals also. I didn't want to blog about the stress cuz I like to keep my blogs happy and add a joke or two, but I need to have a way to rant so this is it.
The biggest stress culprit at the moment is my job. I took this job about a year and half ago, it was supposed to be my dream job but it has turned into a nightmare. My job, basically, is to sit on my but with nothing to do and guess what is happening within the company. There is no communication, I have nothing to do except surf the internet all day and now I am not getting paid either. UGH! I should have guessed when the last 4 pay checks bounced that it was time to get out. But I didn't. So now I am holding a check that bounced and calling the bank everyday to check for funds available and since then I have two additional checks that he has given me that aren't any good! I just want to quit but I feel like if I quit I will go to the bottom of the line in the money department. I have taken money out of savings to pay the monthly bills and it is dwindling fast with no end in sight. The hubby is more than just a little irritated (not at me thankfully) with the boss and he wants to call him and give him a piece of his mind. He is so angry that we fought on our 23rd anniversary last Sunday. No job is worth all of this aggravation and I am looking, but the job market is pretty tight in this area. So I have no choice but to stay here until something pans out.
Next on the stress list. My son is moving to Moorhead to live with a friend and his mother to finish his senior year of high school. Moorhead is about 3 hours away from our house and making all of the arrangements for the move and school from this distance is frustrating. He is 18 and that has brought in a few complications with living with friend & his family. He needs to be added to the lease, go through a criminal background check, etc. Then when I think that he is 18 and should be able to do the school thing by himself ... he can't do it all of it alone. He needs me to fill out paperwork ... even though he is 18.
And finally ... I am hosting a baby shower for my daughter on Sunday ... with the lack of $$ cuz of the job it is making it difficult.