I'm not dead, just tired.

Friday, August 22, 2008

I cannot believe that I've gone nearly three months without a blog entry.

Honestly? I've gone nearly three months checking in only rarely.

It's been a very busy time. I've spent 6.5 of the last 14 weeks in New York, at my sister's, in three separate trips.

I've had an extreme makeover, apartment style, hanging over my head since last November. In eight hours per apartment multiple crews gutted the kitchen and bathrooms, replaced the cabinetry, replace the sinks and faucets, replaced the light fixtures and switches and replaced one ceiling fan.

Preparing for the remodel took more than eight hours. A lot more! I had to empty the kitchen and bathrooms, completely, as if I were moving. I had to clear a 6' wide path from the front door to the kitchen and back bathroom, which required moving the dining room and bedroom furniture and the entire contents of a storage closet. And after the remodel I had to (make that, have to) put everything back. I also have to figure out where to put things, since they changed the configuration of the kitchen cabinets, eliminating four drawers and about 40% of the cabinet space.

The remodel was originally scheduled for February. The date was put off several times. While I was in New York in May I talked with the apartment manager and was told that my apartment would be done, "after August." My sister and I scheduled, and bought tickets for, two more trips. As soon as I returned home I received a notice that my makeover was July 17. emoticon

The leukemia has been getting worse all year. In April my oncologist told me that if my numbers didn't improve by July we'd have to consider "more aggressive treatment," i.e., chemotherapy. The day I left for my first trip to NY I broke a toe. As soon as I got home, three weeks later, I saw my doctor for it. I also asked her to run a CBC to check the status of the leukemia. It had actually improved while I was gone. Then I got the letter.

By the time I saw my oncologist two weeks after the remodel, my "bad" numbers had increased 50% in seven weeks! The only reason I'm not on chemo right now is that we all (both doctors and I) know that the count was inflated by the stress of the remodel and the whopping sinus infection I developed.

So, I'm not on chemo, but I have been much sicker. And tired...relentlessly, overwhelmingly, tired.

So. Where do I stand?

The remodel is over. Done. No more deadline looming over me.

The recovery is not. My dining room furniture is still upside down in my office. My living room is unusable. Half of my kitchen stuff is in boxes in the dining room while I figure out where to put it.

On the other hand, my bedroom and bathroom are fine. My computer is back in its docking station and talking to my peripherals. That was a huge relief. I've had another trip to my sister's; I'm away from the mess, and she waits on me hand and foot. Well, close to it. Two nights ago I put my scrapbooking area back together. I haven't had a place to work in two months.

I'm taking my time to figure out where I want things in the kitchen. When I'm done, I'll give away what doesn't fit.

I'm much more relaxed. I'm getting plenty of rest. This week, for the first time all summer, I'm participating in the produce co-op that I've mentioned. (The dates didn't work with my trips.)

I'm still tired, but I'm on my way back.

Thanks for reading this far! LOL
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    It's so good to hear from you again, Flo! I was wondering how you were doing...
    I'm glad that things are falling back into place for you. It sounds like everything old is new again! Next stop: Good luck with the numbers!
    Take care - Vicky

    P.S.: I just realized what your title says - lol! Cynical - I love it! No, I didn't think for a moment you were dead! You still have too much spunk!
    3528 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/23/2008 2:32:44 AM
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