Wednesday, August 20, 2008
I am really struggling with my eating. Today hasn't been too bad so far, but last night was so horrific when the sun went down that I am not ready to declare a one day of victory yet. I have gained several pounds and just feel like I need to go back to square one. One thing I have learned about myself is that I MUST focus on calories and portion control using the food tracker. I have tried with NO success to use plans (SB diet, Eat-clean diet) that say that calories don't matter. Just eat good foods and you will be fine, they say. The problem is that they assume that I am a normal, rational person who stops eating when they are stuffed. Not so. I like the principals of clean eating, etc., but need to make sure to keep on the food tracker and really crank the willpower up a notch. Once I get a good streak going and start feeling better, I know it will get easier. Once I fall off the wagon, it takes me SOOOO long to get back on! So long, this time, that I have done some damage. My belly is coming back and the clothes are tighter. ...and don't even talk to me about that scale!
OK, enough whining.