Above the Clouds

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

This is a beautiful photo that I had to share with you. It was taken from a higher altitude. The whole journey we are on is going up the mountain of the Lord. There were things I used to get away with at the lower levels. God just won't let me get away with them any more. With knowledge, comes accountablility.

So today we look at our lives. We let God turn on the light to what He wants us to let go of. There is a reason I became overweight. There was a definate time when my attitide towards food changed. I am so done with just chopping off the dandilion like a little child wanting to give mommy a flower. It is time to grow up and dig out that root that has kept me from total freedom.

The assignment is to write down- you may need to pray for revelation- the time your relationship with food became distorted. I already know and want to share the short story of that event:

I was molested by a stranger at the age of 12. That event was kept to myself for 6 years. During that time I started hiding from the shame by eating. It became a horrible cycle that I didn't really understand until I let God touch that wound. So now I want others to experience that same freedom.

This scripture came to me and I feel like it is for someone who will read my blog:

"To give them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; That they may be called the trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified. And they shall rebuild the old ruins, they shall raise up the former desolations, and they shall repair the ruined cities..." Isaiah 61: 3, 4

This is the Divine Exchange. You go to the Lord. Ask Him for revelation to uproot the weeds keeping you from your victory. He gives you beauty for ashes. The repair of the ruined cities is the restoration of our relationship with food the way God originally designed it to be.

It is time! Let go of the past habits that brought the shame and hiding. That is exactly what Adam and Eve did in the garden. They fell and then hid from God- like God didn't know where they were....... He knew. He just wanted them to come clean. Today is the day of freedom, if you will allow it.

God also showed me one more thing. The freedom is not something you take for granted. It is a daily process. It takes time for the freedom we have today to continue. Why?? Because we want to take back the chains that we are so used to. It is like the picture of a tiger who lived in a cage pacing in a circle wanting out. What happens when you let him out? At first, he wanders in circles, because he has become accustomed to the prison.

We not only need freedom, but the time to become acclimated to that freedom. The good thing about the process is that God is never disappointed in the speed at which we go. He is so patient with us. He understand our weakness and loves us the same. He just waits for us to say when.

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    sexual abuse makes a lot of us turn to food, it is a natural reaction. I am glad that that is behind us and we can move foirward and have a good relationship with food now.
    4345 days ago
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    Oh, Mary. Yes, we should have a normal relationship with food. emoticon
    4345 days ago
    Mary...This is a powerful and inspiring blog once again.I so love those scriptures from Isaiah.Have you ever read Joyce Meyer's book Beauty for Ashes?It is one of my favorites.I so relate with her because when she tells her story it is as if she is telling mine.

    I started this eating cycle due to years of incest from my mother and two of my brothers that started as far back as I can remember until I was 12.I strted eating to poush down all the terrible feelings .I also at the same time was being abused physically,mentally,and emotionally by my mom.Being told things like she wished she never had me.All these feelings I didn't know what to do with I used food to push them down shich started my lifetime habit of emotional eating.

    Mary I pray alot of people read this blog.It is very powerful and I believe can help many people.Be blessed.
    4346 days ago
    Mary, thank you for sharing your heart with us. I am sure the Lord is smiling. He will use your faithfull testimony for His glory.

    As for me, the moment popped in my head and it comes out of rebellion. My parents were very strict about when and what we ate. There were also times that my parents would eat candy or drink soda in front of us, but we were not allowed to have it. As I got older I remember a thought I had to myself that as soon as I had my driver's liscence, I could get a job and have money to eat whatever I wanted. The day I got my liscence I also received birthday money. I went and bought candy...I ate so much I was in the bathroom all night ill. I am sure my eating is still out of rebellion...'I CAN eat what I want to, when I want to'. Time to give that to the Lord, huh...hadn't even thought of that in years.

    Let's pray for each other through this, this mentality has been a part of us a long time.

    Blessings to you Mary, and to all who are reading your blog.
    4346 days ago
    Another beautiful photo, Mary. Perhaps you should submit some of these for publication. It is not every day we, here in the US, get to glimpse so candidly into the culture of Tanzania. What unexpected beauty!

    Congrats on your 2.2! You are doing so well!
    4346 days ago
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