Sad :(

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

I just found out my grandmother has days to live. In the past few months she has fallen and broken not one, but both hips (at different times) and had surgery to correct both! But last week she was diagnosed with lung cancer :( and as of today she has not taken in fluids or foods for 6 days as she has lost the ability to swallow :( .. I'm lucky because I'm 22 and never lost a grandparent... but I have to admit this is hard!!! I'm not dealing with it as well as I would like to be as comfort eating has come into play!!! I wish my old habits wouldn't come back so quickly but they seem to rush in without control!!! I am officially depressed tonight :( going to bed early... Sorry for being such a downer :(
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  • TBABY912
    hope you're feeling better today!
    4202 days ago
    Grandmas are just amazing people. It's been more than 20 years that I lost my grandma, and I still miss her. I am sorry I cannot comfort your heart, but know I am thinking of you. Grief is the price we all pay for loving someone. She will always be in your heart.

    Please let me know if I can help in any way.

    Hugs, Lisa emoticon
    4204 days ago
    Sweetie you are not a downer. Just breathe. Take the time to spend with your Grandma, even if she is really out of it do it for you and do it for her. She loves you and she doesn't want to leave you, it is out of her control. It is her time to go and not one person on this planet can change that. As for your eating, take as good of care of yourself as she did for you when you were a baby, cuz you see you are still one of her babies (you will always be) and she loves you and she doesn't want you to do anything that will hurt you. That being said don't get down on yourself right now becuz you are going through one of the hardest times in your life. Your Grandma wants you to have the best life possible. She will always be a part of your life just not in the same way. When the time comes do something special to celebrate her life and the fact that she was your Grandma, and cry, cry, cry and journal and reach out to friends and relatives, and do whatever little special traditions that the two of you had. I am so sorry that you have to go through this and that she will die, but I can tell you from experience that you need to be part of it. Dying is a fact of life and we will not escape it, so make peace with it. Tell your Grandma anything that you want her to kn ow even if she is out of it, kiss her, hold her hand, love her send her off knowing that she is in God's hands now. Peace and hugs, and much compassion. Jeri emoticon emoticon
    4204 days ago
    emoticon My heart goes out to you. I was your age when I lost my grandmother and she was the first significant person to pass in my life as well. It's hard, I know. Right now just do the best you can. I switched to blogging and journalling when I wanted to eat for comfort, maybe go out for a walk, not only is it good for you it'll help you to clear your head a bit and have some down time to handle everything. In the end just take it hour by hour and do the best you can, if you fall off, don't beat yourself up, it's understandable, just do your best next hour.

    4204 days ago
  • ~*KIMMI*~

    I'm so sorry about your Grandmother. Ive lost family members I have been very close to but there is really no way you can tell another how to cope with that. I think just doing what you can to get through it and then try to grieve completely is all you really can do right now. If the good eating habits go out the window for a while..... *shrug* Just do what you can to get through it, keep reaching out for support, try to talk about what you are feeling with close family members so you can all support each other and when you are feeling a little better (it seems impossible, but it will happen) continue where you left off.

    I'm so sorry.

    4204 days ago
  • ATR_1983
    emoticon No need to apolize. I am sending prayers to you and your family. You will get through this. Remember the good times you had with your grandmother. She will alwats be with you in your heart. emoticon
    4204 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/13/2008 1:43:48 AM
    You are going to be okay, pray your grandmother's final journey is painless and quick. I know you do not want to see her suffer. To take your mind off of it, journal, blog, organize, clean, do anything to keep your hands busy that would please your grandmother. Prayers coming out to you,
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    4204 days ago
  • no profile photo FOCUSED428
    i know what you mean im 20 and i have lost both of my grandparents and i have had to deal with alot of stress which has caused me to backslide so im restarting with you but you can get through it
    4204 days ago
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