OMG. Again, I keep telling myself that I will get back on track with
eating. But then I wake up and think what can I eat today.
Then it starts all over again.
The eating that is. I just can't seem to stop and control myself.
The more I eat, the more I want or think I need to feel satisfied.
Would you believe I made homemade cookies last night. So what
happened when I woke up this morning. The cookies were just
sitting there on the counter calling to me.
I wish my husband had finished them last night. He seems to have more
will power than I do. Why, oh why, did I even bake those cookies.
I just had to finish the last 2. Oh My.
Then I thought I should eat something more substantial for breakfast.
So I take out the Weight Watcher Roll and I have an Avocado
sitting there. I put 1/2 of the Avocado on the Roll and a slice of tomato.
Sounds like a good breakfast. I can't wait for lunch.
But before I decide to eat lunch, I think I'm going to step on the scale.
I even dreamt about the scale last night. Well I won't even tell you
what it said.
That means I have to lose those same pounds again. It's going to take
me forever. And yesterday I had on a pair of old fat pants that I had in the closet. They are big on me, but not too big. The other ones that I had
bought in the smaller sizes are just too tight.
My mind starts to race. How long is it going to take me to get to my goal
again. Am I ready for this. I have too many leftovers in the fridge to
start working on the diet today.
Oh well, I might as well eat lunch.
I chose to have a bowl of Campbell's Chunky soup. I ate about 1/2 cup and
thought, why am I eating this, I don't even feel like eating it. The dog was
greatful. She got the rest of it.
I really need something sweet to eat.
Oh, I have some cut up watermelon in the fridge. I'll just snack on that.
I'm still hungry. Maybe I'll have a bowl of low fat ice cream. The carton
is almost empty. I'll finish it off.
It then was 4:00 o'clock.
I'm hungry again.
You know, I have some chicken fahitas left over in the fridge. I'll heat
one of those up.
I eat that w/some salsa and some more watermelon slices.
I think I'm finished eating for the day.
That's it so far today. Will I keep on looking for something else to put into my mouth or will I be able to not eat until tomorrow morning.
Maybe if I keep on thinking of this little person all stretched out around
the middle I can keep my cravings down.
I really think it might be the sugar that is spurring this eating frenzy on.
I need to stop eating things with sugar.
Got my blood work results from the doctor today.
Good Cholesteral is 59
Bad Cholesteral is 101
Trygliserates are 86
Gloucose is 82
Overall these results are good. I still know sugar is my trigger.
I need to try to keep away from it.
Wish me luck.