I have stopped crying at least...
Saturday, August 09, 2008
Well, I knew it wouldn't last forever, but got spoiled for awhile. Working in retail was not the best solution for me and I was thrilled when I switched not just jobs, but careers. I was *blessed* to get hired into a human resource position to start at the entry level and the fact that it was literally 2 minutes away with a M-F schedule was awesome. I could leave my house at 7:55 and be home by 5:05. I could come home and have lunch with my children for an hour everyday! This was the best!!! But with the economy drying up and local factories laying off, all that has changed. My office will only be open 2 days a week and I was offered a different office. The new office is an onsite and 35 mins away. The hours are 7-4, which require me to leave my house no later than 6:15.
So I had set a goal to get up by 6 am before because i was worried about getting the kids up and out of the house by 7:45. So this has really thrown me for a loop! I will not be able to take my kids to school as orginally planned (1st yr of kindegarten, and preschool). This has been the worst disappointment!!! Not to mention, the kids will have to be up and dressed by 6:00 so I can drop them off at their dads. This whole experience is very disappointing and devastating on so many levels. There are a lot of issues that I worry about and is not within any of my control at least for awhile.
There are some positives that I forcing myself to think about like it is a great resume builder, great experience, definitely a challenge (although this is a negative b/c the job itself will be more stressful), new opportunites to meet people/networking, and THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON!! Years from now I hope I can look back and see how things have fallen in place and know that this exeperience will be for something spectacular in my future. I need this experience to get where I want to go after I complete my degree and get my PHR.
So for now, I will suck it up and deal with it. I have done retail working 60+ hours a week for 9 years, including evenings, holidays, etc. a part time job and school all at once. I am strong and this will just help me become a better, more efficient, and organized person. And for now I have stopped crying about all the disappointments.