Monday, August 04, 2008
So this weekend I had a hard time. I was feeling down and of course I directed all my frustration and feelings of being discouraged toward my weight. I am not an over eater, I am an under eater that exercises too much to not eat very much (that statement makes sense in my head). LOL I sat down to journal and just beat myself up. I don't know why but I need to stop doing that. I need support and I need a weekend plan. I am tired of beating myself up; I want to feel good on the inside just as much as I want to look good on the out side. My being overweight is an excuse for everything I do (or don't do). Today is monday and I am going to start over. My plan is to sit down tonight and journal about myself. I can lose the weight and be a healthy person if I could just stop being so hard on myself. I need good kick in the bottom. I need to write lines... I will not talk bad about myself over and over and over and put it up in my bedroom, bathroom, hallway, fridge, pantry, desk, etc. I have a great team of supporters and I know I will receive lots of positive comments to this blog. I have to make a promise to myself to be better to ME!!! If I don't take care of me...who will?