Excited to be back!!
Saturday, August 02, 2008
I became overweight over a period of 10 years. I have injuries that limit my movement and mobility. It was not as if I sat and consciously ate until I became over 200 pounds. It was mindless eating and gradual increases until I realized I was very uncomforable in my body. It wasn't until I saw a photograph and I wondered who that person was....it was me!! How did I get here? How could I do this to myself? Where was my resolve? Self-disgust and self-pity permeated from every pore of my body. All I could do was look at that picture and wonder who that person was???
I tried to eat better, work out or walk when I could and began this journey all alone. It was not working! One day I did a search online about weightloss and found a message board for weightloss - looking for a buddy! . Six months later, I sit here with a loss of 15 pounds. It is a very slow journey for me as every day I improve my time on the ellipitical machine. When I first began I could only do three minutes a day..I now can do 90 minutes daily. Seriously when I first began 3 minutes almost killed me. Each day I am in pain before I even begin, but I swear the exercise makes me feel better after. Some days I can not even walk after but I know that once the pain settles down, or by the next day I will be grateful I did it. I have to choose daily to do errands or live a bit, or exercise, it's that simple. I give up a lot for this journey to be successful but know that in the end I will be thankful for everything, having been told I may never walk unaided again. I was about to give up when a friend on my board suggested trying sparkspeople. I am soo grateful she did. Being able to see exactly what I put into my body has shown me areas that I was sabbotaging myself and areas to make small healthy changes. I am still working on this but with sparks by my side I feel I can do the next part of my journey.
Gradual decreases with mindful eating. I post daily and monitor my status, conscious of what goes into my body. My weight is more tolerable now but it gets very frustrating to gain a few pounds back on my bad days/weeks (too much pain to exercise).. I still have quite a distance to go, but I refuse to give up. I would like to find buddies on sparks that will provide motivation and support, and am willing to be a friend to those in need also.
Enjoy your journey!! Hugzzz Karen