Thursday, July 31, 2008
Yup, I've been anti-social lately. I don't particularly know why. I've just been super busy. However, when I mention that and people ask what I've been up to, I can never really think of anything to say.
I've always been really comfortable just hanging out with myself. I don't really need a social scene. I never did have a group that I belonged to in high school. I was friends (aquaintances maybe?) with lots of people. But I was never in an actual group. I was friends with people on dance team, but I wasn't on it. I was friends with people in choir and band, but I wasn't in those either. I was on the newspaper staff, and I did talk to people there. But I didn't have a reason to go to the late nights, so I never did. I was friends with random people, but most of them weren't friends with one another. So I guess I'm just not used to hanging out with a group of people. I seem to be more of a one-on-one type person.
So my days tend to fill up with errands, chores, the gym, church activities, sparkpeople, myspace, youtube, and attempting to keep in touch with family and friends. But I've been really bad about that last one! There's a lot of everyone else, and very little of me. I'm also attempting to read Barbara Walters' memoir Audition. If I think about it, it's not even that long of a book, I don't think it quite gets to 600 pages. But I'm also reading four other books (as is usual of me). But since I got the book from the library I always feel like there is a ton of pressure to read it quickly. Especially since I sit on the waiting list for most of the books I check out. There are always a billion people in line ahead of me, and a billion people behind me. So I tend to try and read them as quickly as possible. So if I'm not online, at the gym, or at church, I'm probably reading.
I guess it's because social events tend to drain me of all my energy. Small talk is particularly EXCRUCIATING. I usually have to have some sort of preparation before I put myself through that. But since summer hit, it's been one thing after another. In fact this last weekend was the first (and last!) time all summer that we had absolutely nothing to do. Then, of course, both Aubrey and I ended up getting sick. It was nice actually because we spent practically three whole days laying in bed and watching movies together. Talk about a zero pressure situation. Just getting to spend some quality time with my husband, even if he was in pain and I felt lightheaded and dizzy the whole time. We watched movies I haven't even thought about in years!
I guess this blog is an attempt to apologize to anyone who has wanted to talk, but I haven't had the time. To anyone who doesn't hear from me often enough, to anyone who wonders why I'm even friends with them here if I'm never going to be good at staying in touch with them. I love you all! But shhh, just let me finish this chapter.
Member Comments About This Blog Post
You look fantastic Amber! Way to go girl! My hat is off to you!
And Jibbie49 is so right about Dr. Phil's Dad's saying. LOL!
"Don't worry about what peopel are thinking about you because you'd be surprised how seldom they do." Dr. Phil per His Dad.
What insight and wisdom!
Do you often think about other people? Probably not, so there you have it.
Anyway, you have done a most excellent job in your weight loss! And you have such pretty eyes too!
3590 days ago
Small talk is difficult for me too
3607 days ago
I had to laugh, because Dr. Phil's saying came to mind when you were worried about what people were thinking since you hadn't kept up with them......."Don't worry about what people are thinking about you, because you'd be surprised how seldom they do." Dr. Phil per His Dad.
3611 days ago
You know there is extroverts (who get energy being around other people etc) and then there is introvert (who need time/space to recharge their energies). That is the Myers Briggs definition, and introvert doesn't meant that your not social etc, it's how you get your energies.
There is nothing wrong with wanting time for yourself, it's actually healthy :) Most people whether extroverts or introverts love to have some free time, to just lounge around or have nothing plan, and free to do anything you want on a whim.
And if someone asks what you've been up to, errands, chores, the gym, church activities, being a Leader & inspiration on Sparkpeople, and keeping in touch with family & friend IS a full plate. So it's understandable, your not able to keep up with everyone all the time :)
3611 days ago
I am pretty much the same way. I am perfectly happy with the time I spend alone. Which is probably a good thing, as with my work schedule, I work on weekends, my days off are during the week, so it makes it kind of hard to socialize, except for online.
I am more of a one-on-one person too. The bigger the group I'm in, the quieter and shyer I tend to be.
And as much as I love the occasional get together with family or a group of friends, I'm always glad when the party is over and I can go back to my peaceful, quiet home.
3611 days ago
I am anti-social except on-line. It seems easier to be myself when people can't see me. lol
3612 days ago
Amber....I can relate to your story. I was in the choir, Pep Club, Triple Trio...went to Football and Basketball games...but was never one of the "group". Moist of my other activities were with my church youth group, choir and teaching Sunday School.
Chit Chat is not something I'm really good at and social activities today take a lot out of me. I enjoy helping other people, but am never sure how much help I really am to people...but I'll keep trying....and go ahead and finish that chapter.
3612 days ago
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