am I a bad person
Friday, July 25, 2008
OK I normally think I am kind thoughtful and all around a pretty decent person. However, recently something came up that bothers me. Long story short I don't get along with my folks. After my back injury I was in constant pain and was very limited what I could do. My mom took this opportunity to start calling me a druggie in front of my kids (I was on a lot of meds but I took them as directed or less) say I was ignoring my kids and that there was nothing physically wrong with me. If I ever disagreed with her she said I was in need of phsycological help. Now karma has come back on her and she now has a bulging disc. Not as bad as mine but enough to cause a lot of pain. Now I understand how she feels. The pain she is in now is the same pain I have had for the last 6 yrs and will have for the rest of my life!!! (I now have nerve damage and have a medical implant to help w/pain) Part of me is glad she is in this pain, hoping that she will have more respect and understanding for me. Yet I know how bad this pain is and wouldn't wish it on anyone. Please be honest. Is it too much to hope for that she will understand me more or will she just keep thinking how bad she has it?