Monday, July 21, 2008
Yep, I'm still here. And I was just thanking God this morning that despite all the hoops I've had to hurdle, and despite all the flying debris I have had to dodge in the past two months in particular....that I was TRULY thankful to him for allowing me to celebrate another year of life.
Today is my birthday. But many 30 and over people can relate; birthdays at this point in life often feel like "just another day" - and if you are truly like me, you want nothing more than to hurry up and get it over with!
In the past two months I really do sense I lost my "weight loss mojo". If you had a glimpse of my personal circumstances you would understand full well why I did. But I do not say all that to make excuses or whine about it.
Quite the contrary - I sense no condemnation for having distracted myself with my weight loss goals or do I plan to use the events of late to justify throwing my goals into the trash. Delays like this are just a natural cycle of life that we may all have to go through; and in some cases at more than one point in your life. If all I accomplished was the reformation of my physical body but not took the time to reform everything else about me (mental, spiritual, relationships, fulfillment of purpose) than I would have wasted my time even in that little accomplishment.
I remain connected to the Sparkpeople community, I log my meals (even the ravenous, slothful, embarrassing ones) to maintain habit. I remain optimistic that one day in the very near future I will reach those goals. That weight loss "mojo" is nothing more than a cat that ventured off to get rowdy with his back alley buddies for a few days. He's gonna find his way back home just when you least expect it, so just kick back - cook your dinner, watch your evening program and RELAX....he'll come scratching at your front door when you least suspect it!
That's all... I know all of that probably sounded so random and scattered but that's just what's on my heart at the moment.