I've been missing for about a week. I think a lot has to do with stress. I haven't been over eating, just not eating right and let me tell you it has made me feel like complete S#%T. So here it is Monday morning 8am. Everyone except me is still sleeping and I'm sitting here thinking, I need to get up off my b'hind.
I think I'm slowing falling into a depression. Money is tight so we've been cutting corners where ever possible. We had to cancel our vacation which sucks but we'll make the best of it. We cancelled our phone service, our DTV, But I think what really pushed over the edge was when I cancelled my gym membership last week. I just started to cry. Even now thinking about it, I just want to cry. But i'm trying to stay strong and pull it together. I have a tredmill, and elliptical trainer, a exercise stability ball all here in my house. So the plan is to use them as much as possible. I know what I can do with out the gym, its just finding the motivation to do it. I keep telling myself 30-60 mins each day is really all i need, but then I sit and look at all the crap around me and I end up on most days pushing my exercise to the side. I need to some how figure out a time slot where from such a such time is my exercise time and not let anything interfere with it. The question is when and what is the best time.
I have always like working out in the AM seems to get me moving for the day and gives me the energy to get other things done, but for some unknown reason (actually I think its just out of pure laziness, lack of motivation/focus) I can't get moving when I know i'm working out at home. EEEErrrrrrr, I've gotta figure something out.
I'm just so down on myself right now, its getting on my husbands nerves, I'm even getting on my own nerves, lol.
Something has just got to give here. I can't afford anything right now, I've lost my gym temporarily, and its driving me mad. And the price of eating healthy is ridiculous as well. So what options do I have but to make the best of it, right?
I know once again i'm running off at the mouth, but this kinda helps me vent, and get me motivated and gives me determination to not give up.
I'm trying to set up a schedule that is going to work for me when school starts back up too.
So starting today
Monday I plan on 60 mins on tredmill
Tuesday exercise video (maybe taebo, I feel like kicking some booty
Wednesday 30 mins elliptical
Thursday exercise video
Friday 60 mins on tredmill
Saturday maybe take the kids to the park or pool
Sunday (might just take the day off)
Goal for the week be down 2-3 pounds.
Wish me luck I'm gonna need it at this point.