One Day at a Time
Monday, July 14, 2008
I was never overweight growing up so I have a very hard time losing weight. I don't see myself as I truly am. I know I am heavy but don't realize what I really look like until I see myself in photos. I hate the way I look. I try to avoid photos which hurts inside because I have two beautiful dauthers that I love taking photos of yet I always try to avoid being in a photo with them. I want the memories but don't want to have to see myself. I have tried numerous "diets" and obviously they didn't work or I wouldn't be here. I was depressed for many years and now I can see the light. I become frustrated easliy with trying to lose weight that I can say I always fail. I am going to fight this time. My mom has said that I will be fat until I decide I don't want to be fat any longer. Only I can make the change. As I am sitting angry at my mother for saying what she said to me I realize that I feed myself and I can make the change. I am ready to lose weight and NOT give up. I will not give up hope on myself either!
One day at a time and I have to congradulate myself for being self conscidene about what I eat and making healthier choices. This past weekend was the first time in ALONG time that I make better choices and didn't get out of control. I may not have eaten my meals regularly like I do during the week but I did get my calories and better choices helped!! I am going to keep my head up and stay focused on what I want for ME!