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Disturbing...

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Ok, I feel a little unsettled. Today for the QOTD on our team thread I chose to post: "What is your happiest childhood memory?" Well, I could not think of ONE for myself, and then I started thinking...if I can't think of one, what if someone on the team had a rough childhood and I asked such an insensitive question. I went back and re-posted a new QOTD. I do not want to hurt anyone or bring back bad feelings.

And now...I wonder.......WHY can't I think of even ONE happy memory?? I wasn't abused, I never went without anything that I needed, etc. Is this something I should truly address or is it just that nothing fascinating or spectacular sticks out in my memory? My childhood was not picturesque/idealistic, but it wasn't hell. What is wrong with me? Am I so self absorbed, greedy, cold....that I can't look back and find happiness from when I was young. WOW! Are my children going to look back at their life and think the same thing. I am wondering if there is more to this than just a poor memory or uneventful life.

I am rambling but I feel really odd about this. It's just really weird. Ok, I am done "thinking out loud."
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  • LITTLE_ENGINE
    you know, i have a lot of childhood memories, good and bad but i have huge gaps in my life where i think it was just a time where we were living and nothing much was happening. That might be it for you or... i also read an article on memory and they had 2 extremes... there was a lady who could remember every minute of her life (literally) and a guy who couldn't remember he met you 5 minutes ago... scary. we all fall inbetween there somewhere and not everyone has memories of everything... probably nothing stood out in your childhood and i think sue is right...some time something will trigger a memory for you. i don't think you need to add the stress of not remembering to an already stressful life! we got enough of today's stuff to worry about! emoticon

    be healthy, be happy
    ~micki
    4107 days ago
  • SUSIE531
    I didn't really have any spectacular memories from childhood until my grandaughter got to 3 or 4 and then things she would say or do triggered 'oh I remember doing that' and more came back. One day something will just set you off and you will remember lots of things, I am sure

    sue
    4170 days ago
  • POSITIVELY_EB
    Jill, I think we all have to look back at our "childhood days" and reflect on them occassionally. As you ponder different things in your past, you will suddenly remember some of the fun things. Just give yourself time! Be gentle with yourself!

    Hugs! Beverly
    4170 days ago
  • SPATTERS3
    maybe you're trying to compare grown-up "happy" to childhood "happy". Did you ever go to the beach ? Did you ever ride a roller coaster ? Catch fireflies on a summer night ? Lay on your back in dew-wet grass and try to count all the stars ? Those (and a million like them) are my happy childhood memories.

    And if you really don't have any, it certainly is past time to get some !

    -Sheila
    4170 days ago
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