What I like about myself (challenge 8)
Thursday, May 29, 2008
You know.. when you are sort of forced to take a look at yourself and decide what you actually like about yourself.. it is sort of difficult.. at least for me. I have spent so long looking at myself and only seeing the bad, I never stopped to really take a good look at what it is that I actually liked. Now when I look at myself, I try to find something I like but all I see is the bad. I cant see any good so I actually had to ask my mother. I felt sort of stupid because I couldn't find anything good and I got all upset. My mother told me to think of myself at the weight I want to get to, seeing as how I have been that weight before, and pick what it is that I liked about myself then. She said that if I liked it then, I like it now, I just cant see it because it is under all the double cheeseburgers and chicken quesadillas..lol.. So, here we go.. what I like about myself is my calves.. I always have, even though they have always been muscular so I cant wear those adorable knee-high boots... but that is ok. I have always been very strong/muscular, and I know I still am, I just cant tell because it is covered.
My favorite thing about my personality is that I am a nurturer. I love to take care of people. I guess that is why I work at a nursing home and why I got into the health care profession all together... because I feel good when I am needed. Now, I will not deny that I am probably an enabler..lol.. I wont lie. Yet this is how I have always been. If I can do it for you.. even though you should be doing it yourself, I will do it to help. I need to feel needed.. at least that is what my therapist says..lol.. He says that I need to be needed by others to justify my life.. to justify why I am here.
I am one WHACKED OUT BRAWD!!..lol..