All this slacking!!!
Friday, May 09, 2008
All this dang on slacking hasn't done anything but cost me precious time that I do not have. I started the wk off Sunday totally "in the zone" . By Tue. I was like, "zone...what's that?" I got up and put the ole' workout clothes on, got the people out the house except for the baby and ready to get back into gear! What was that? Get BACK into gear.. here we go again!!! Like round 286 of "getting back in gear". I'm tired of that man! I checked my little weightloss calendar only to find out that I am like 10 lbs behind!! I mean what the HELL C.Y. Wouldn't you think that health, life, strength, and family are all things that would make any person get up and "GET IT"? No ma'am No sir, not me. I have been slacking this wk and get this, it has been for no apparent reason. I mean really just senseless slacking!!! I'm not depressed(maybe after seeing the scale on Sun), I'm not too stressed(just from slacking), and I shouldn't be bored(especially if I am working out) so what is it? What is contributing to my lack of motivation? I don't even have the answer for that and I am ticked!!!
I can't be on teams, apart of challenges, a leader, a success to someone else if I lack the will power or motivation to be that example for everyone else and myself. I do all of these things to hold myself accountable and that still doesn't work. I'm not slow, self contained, or mentally ill. This is truly, "Elementary my Dear Watson!" I mean come on! The whole falling and getting back up thing is getting kind of redundant!
Time out for that, people are counting on me...for Pete's sake I am counting on me!!! So I guess I can say that I am not upset with the fact that I may not see a change from last wk to this wk or that I haven't actually followed my plan. However, I am/will be upset to know that I have been undetermined and it is for no REASON whatsoever!!!! That really grinds my gears(Family Guy, lol) Anyway, I am about to get off the ole' fanny and stop making it more heavier. And I am about to get this stuff DONE!! I mean just do it, get it over with, and move on!! How simple does that really sound?!?!?!!?
DETERMINED DIVA, huh? Determined to be persistent for once in my life about life. It's all on me baby. I hold all the cards. I suppose I have to deal them or be dealt with!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!