REally...I can do this...I'm stronger than I seem to be...

Friday, May 02, 2008

I'm so frustrated with myself.
I am ashamed that I haven't been as strong as I can be.
Not to be a "glass half empty" sort but I've been neglecting my health much more than one should ever do.
I haven't been working out as much as I could be. I was taking 5 hour long walks a week which was good but not intense. It's like I'm afraid to start jogging even. It's so difficult to incorporate something like that when you are unsure of your abilities. I've never been a runner...but there are many cases that I am aware of where people have gone from non-runners to marathon lovers. I want to be one of those people. Maybe not even marathonish but at least a girl that can go out and run 2 miles each morning. What a great way to start the day! Luckily, I am moving to Arizona soon (anyone in Tucson?) and my boyfriend's mom lives there. She was never a runner until her 20s and now she runs marathons..she'll help me out and get me in the groove. I admit that I am terrified though!!!
I should take up swimming again. Hands down one of the best exercises ever invented. So easy on the joints and all over work out! I am not a great superwoman swimmer but I swam in hs and was in great shape! I'd love to get back to that! I also love spinning..I hope to find a few classes out in AZ :)
I'm mostly just dissapointed because I have maybe lost 5 lbs since Christmas. Size 12s are still just fitting. And they are not loose :( I want to get into a comfortable size 10...can't wait until the 8s are fitting again~ it's been almost 10 years since an 8!!! :(
My goal was to lose 40 lbs. Christmas until August 1st...I am more than halfway there...quite obviously I can not lose 35 lbs in 3 months. If I could just do 15, I'd be happy. Sadly, that will not put me in bikini shape. I was so excited..so was my boyfriend. Unfortunately , he'll just have to settle for a hot, one pieced bathing suit instead. My bikini will be there for me when it's time. It's not going anywhere. :) I can do it!!!

Any motivation/advice is appreciated!!! :)
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    I know what you mean about wanting to turn from a non-runner into a marathon-runner! It's hard to get out there, though, don't I know it. You can do it though!
    3613 days ago
    First step is believing in yourself. Even if it's just a little, hang onto that and your confidence will grow. Go for a walk today and try jogging just for the length of a couple telephone pole lengths. Then go out to walk again tomorrow and try to go a little farther. Easing into it will help to make sure you don't hurt your muscles (since they are un-used to it) and also will keep you from getting discouraged. Let it even be motivation to get out there every day b/c you are excited to try just a little bit more. It's so fun to see what new things you can teach your body!

    Also, I haven't tried the couch to 5K program, but it looks really interesting so it might be worth a try? I think there is a written program and also there is a Spark team for it.

    Take that frustration you are feeling and let it drive you to make a change. You can do this! And it feels SO GOOD when you do! Your body will feel lighter, you will have more energy, and you are going to be so proud of what you accomplish!

    Maybe sign up for a 5K race now for a few months from now, and then you will REALLY be motivated to work toward it?

    I believe in you, now you just need to believe in you too. :-)
    3641 days ago
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