Back on Track - Mentally and Physically

Thursday, May 01, 2008

It has been over a month since I've blogged. I'm finally beginning to feel like myself again, and it's time to get back at it.

This winter was particularly difficult for me - mentally. My depression was exacerbated to the point where I asked my doctor to increase my medication. She told me to wait a few weeks until I could get outside in the sun and she was right. A few days of warm weather made me feel SO much better I can barely believe the depth of my cabin fever.

I'm a very competitive person, with a high drive to succeed. In my attempt to be the perfect exerciser, perfect runner, perfect eater - I started to fail at all. I was pushing myself so much with running that I was exhausted all the time. I made myself get out every day to do something and it wasn't doing me any good. I was so tired and run down that I was hungry all the time which led to a lot of night bingeing.

A few weeks ago, my partner Reg decided that he wanted to try running. I told him that if he was serious I would go through the couch to 5k program with him to keep him company. I did the first week with him and really enjoyed it. I still did my own runs on the days he wasn't going.

When the second week came along I decided to let him go off by himself (on the same path) and I would do my own interval runs. It meant that I was running a lot more than he was, but we were out together and I was actually running faster, but putting less time in.

Now, into his third week, I'm only running on the days he does, and the extra time off has contributed immensely to how I feel. I'm sleeping better, my weight has started a downward slide again, and I look a lot less tired.

This is a case of 'less is more,' I plan to keep it up until I see an obvious trend in one direction or another and I'll re-evaluate. Once I get back into half-marathon training mode I'll add one long run per week, and keep the other 3 runs relatively short.

I haven't had any junk of any kind for 8 days. Big deal huh? For me - it is. Over the winter I was eating all the sugar I could get my hands on. I'm a strict vegan - no animal products of any kind - but sugar and starch and fried food were fair game to me and it's also poison to me.

I'm feeling much brighter about this coming year - and I feel confident that I can reach my weight goal by December. Having put it in writing I will do my very best to ditch the weight I gained over winter and get myself to where I want to be.

That is all.
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    Keep the faith... You can do anything... with God's help
    4086 days ago
    Lybbe - I'm glad you're feeling better and enjoying your runs again. :) Do you have one of those "sun lamps"? When I lived in Alaska, I heard a lot of good things about them. Sometimes they'll be covered (or at least partially) by insurance.
    4537 days ago
    i stumbled on your page and you are an amazing woman! lots of changes for you in the past couple of years and i'm glad that you are re-evaluating your needs and your health so that you can continue to make positive choices.
    4556 days ago
    I second Cassie's thoughts... take care! We love you!

    How wonderful that Reg has taken up running, and how nice it must be to get out there with him. You're very wise to tone things down... ever hear of "over-training"? emoticon Take some time to take care of yourself, and quit pushing so hard. Really try to speak to yourself the way you would speak to a friend. (It's been said before, but it's so true.) It's hard to accept that we aren't perfect and never can be. Sometimes we can't be the best, we can't juggle all those balls at once, and it only makes us miserable to attempt it. Instead, why not set yourself some really small goals to get back on track - the junk food is a huge wonderful success to show you're already heading in the right direction! Focus on how clean and healthy you feel without all those toxic foods in your system, and hopefully it will give you strength next time you're faced with a sugar-or-not decision.

    Great big giant hugs, my dear. You're ever and always an inspiration, so keep blogging - it makes my day to read it. Take care! emoticon
    4559 days ago
    Glad to see you back! I'm still very slowly getting back in the swing of things, I didn't realize just how much having my friend living here would throw off my weight loss! Talk to you soon.
    4562 days ago
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    Ahwww sweetie. I knew you were posting less, but had no idea you were suffering like that. I'm glad you were able to work through it with your doctor, and thank goodness for sunshine medicine. All that yard work is gold for you! Keep your spirits up. I've never had to deal with depression, so I really have no idea of how low the depths are. I'm just glad you know how to ask for help, and when.
    4562 days ago
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