Afraid of not being fat~

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

I came to a hard realization.
I believe that one of the reasons that I have failed so many times before is because I sabotage myself. I get so many pounds gone and I feel different, and I go back to before.

I feel thinner. I know its only a few lbs, but I feel different. And thats where the fear comes in. I have been fat for so long. I think i'm afraid of being thinner. I'm afraind of loosing myself (the fat chick I've been for so long).
I don't know why its so scarey. Being healty would be great.
I don't like being the fat chick that has a hard time finding clothes. Or gets snickered at when I go to eat. Or being watch when I go for a walk or exersise.

Does anyone else have this problem.
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    I agree with you 100%. After I do good for a while and get compliments and attention I kind of go back. I think I'm just used to not having the attention when I get it, I don't know how to act. It's funny but being fat almost is like a wall to guard us from getting hurt? But it only hurts ourselves. You are a beautiful person just as you are, but you (and I) deserve to be healthy too. I don't know about you but I take about 12 pills a day for sugar, chlosterol, low iron. I would be so happy to cut that in half at least. We are going to do this WE DESERVE IT!
    4692 days ago
    I definately know how your feeling.
    I don't know who I am thin. I don't want to lose who I am now.

    4692 days ago
    I understand what your saying...
    I feel the same way..
    i will do real good and then I start going back to my old eating habits.
    But I guess we have to work through are problems....
    We can do this, we are worth it!
    4692 days ago
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