MAJESTICBEEJ

SparkPoints
 

Sunday Sunday Sunday

Sunday, April 06, 2008

On Friday and Saturday I went to look for shirts. All of mine seem to be much too baggy. I just feel ridiculous in all of my old ones. So I set out to buy at least a few new ones.

I had no luck. Either the shirt was too baggy with sleeves that were too short or too tight...or it just wouldn't fit. It was a bit depressing. I walked around the store feeling sorry for myself and walked out empty-handed. It appears I still have some work to do on my self-esteem. I just didn't know I had THAT much work left.

I am totally uncomfortable letting people see my bare arms. That's the problem. I also have that lovely back fat that I am not fond of. The arms are my biggest issue. I'm planning on really working out my arms as I continue to lose weight. I really want to feel good showing some more skin. Its going to get warmer soon, and I won't be able to wear a jacket without people really noticing that I'm just hiding under it. I think I'll work out my arms every other day. I really want to get some arms to be proud of.

The hard part is resolving these issues I have with my arms. I think I'll have to start wearing tanks under a jacket more often and just tell myself every day that I CAN pull off the sleeveless look. I guess I'll have to find some positive things to say to myself and also get some honest opinions from people about how I look. I just need the confidence...and then even if my arms aren't quite perfect...I can show them off fearlessly. That would be so great for me.

I'm at 197 and I'm pleased with that. Its funny how 46 pounds seems like moderate success. I thought when I get closer to 50 pounds lost I'd feel like I've lost substantially. I've almost lost 20% of my total body weight. That magical 10% has come off...almost times two. That's good, right? lol. I know it is...but my modesty keeps me from celebrating too much. More self esteem issues. Fun fun.

On my second day of shopping I did find some very cute shoes, though. I needed something other than my walking shoes to wear out in public.

I also found a pair of jeans in the REGULAR section. Size 17...and they were actually petites...so no hemming! Yay! When I get down smaller I have some hand-me-downs from a cousin of mine. These 17's are tight...but just tight enough. It will be great to get too small for them.

Today I played badminton...did some walking around stores...and kept my calories at just around 1200...a little above. Its good that I stayed in the low end of my calories. I slacked a bit on water...but tomorrow is another day.

Have a great Sunday everyone and thanks for all the congratulations. I'm humbled. I really am. :)
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
  • AZCHIKEDE82
    We are in the same boat on arms!!! I've never been comfortable showing them...and I live in Mesa, Arizona! Which...oh ya...I have a VERY un-sexy farmers tan most of the year, lol. But, I say...once a month this summer (at the least!) we both do it, and go sleeveless. AHHH! Just makes me want to run out and cover them up more, hehehe. Anyway, CONGRATS big time on your success, and may it just keep continuing!
    4857 days ago
  • STARTSPARKING
    So you are too modest to celebrate your success so far, huh? Well, let me get you started then... WOOHOO!!! *happy dance!* *jumping for joy!* You have lost 46 pounds, my friend! 20% of your weight! Yes, you have lost a SUBSTANTIAL amount of weight. I am so proud of your accomplishments so far! You need to replace that "lost 20 pounds" icon on your SparkPage with a "lost 45 pounds" one to give yourself proper credit.

    I can relate to how you feel about your arms. Just last summer I was so embarrassed about my legs that I would wear long pants in 100 degree weather in the summer. I have exercised for years, but it used to be just two or three times a week. I'd wear baggy T-shirts. Finally I mustered enough courage to wear sleeveless exercise tops, and I've received compliments! We are our worst critics. You are conscientious about how your arms look, but I bet others would not be as critical as you.

    I wish I can convey to you just how impressed I am of your progress and how inspired I am by all you have achieved. You should be so proud of yourself because you are amazing. *hugs*
    4858 days ago
  • SHANSHE
    Sometimes the key to resolving our issues is realizing what they are and determining to work on them and that is just whant you have done! I bet before long you will love those arms, LOL!

    You are beautiful!
    Shannon
    4859 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment


    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.
 

More Blogs by MAJESTICBEEJ