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Friday, April 04, 2008

greetings ya'll
took a break from the ball
so as to tell
that all is not well
'cuz I have been totally
"To punish my own faults
Blows aimed internally"
to use the words
of Barb-Bard
my inner cords
are breaking down
don't know why it is so

But IF I didn't have the poetry
of my friends...up the tree
I would be...
It seems that life
is always challenging this Royal wife

Is it a gift to be so sensitive
to events, words and such?
My vocation needs me to be sensitive
But voiced judgments are such
that I find justification for
inner abuse; measurement much
caring friends say don't listen for
those judgments are poorly, cruelly useless

BUT such is my clinical depression....
the filter doesn't always work
AND seriously a co-worker had nothing better to do
than to complain about the ROYAL TIARA
being worn
while I was working with nonverbal mentally retarded children who love the tiara....
while I was working with autistic communication issues....
while I was working with patients who have lost their speech secondary to a stroke...
while I was working with emotionally disturbed teenagers who love the tiara...
while I was working with so many other co-workers who wondered where the ROYAL TIARA had gone...
'cuz this Princess pouted
by putting the tiara away..

So rather than seeing the purose of 'thinking outside the box' AND the benefit of wearing a ROYAL TIARA albeit plastic...
this one co-worker participated in character assisignation of this ROYAL Princess...
So the Princess was
Thinking of taking her ROYAL toys and going home/castle

BUT what purpose would that serve?
What about my clients/patients/students WHO love the DRAMA of this princess who is looking for her princess-dom....

Such is the DRAGON of clinican depression...
changing the vision
altering the outer/inner filter of the brain's
reception/perception of events
Clinical depression's dragon sending fire into my realm...
HOw do I cope
Why the absence of hope

I do know unique people who seem to so understand the gifts, creativity, challenges and bottomless pit of depression....

blessings ya'lll

WOW that felt good to get all of that out.... hope ya'll can read between the lines so that it will make some sense... Talk about the healing power of talking....

A smile is emerging...
maybe I'll go find me some mead ....
Is there a Prince Charming out there?
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    and by the way that tiara is NOT PLASTIC...i wore it myself when you let me borrow it!!! i speak next week to incoming medical students at vanderbilt university (yes your lady-in-waiting) and i will speak of patients and empathy and the fact that we aren't arms legs or gall bladders but real people wish me luck!!!!
    4345 days ago
    you have to feel for the person who is trying to put you in the box..they never in a million years understand that most of life when we are seaching is a fantasy and it is the way to endure..being out of the box opens us to others and gets things done in and off the wall manner..more success comes from out of the box as opposed to in and need to bring that person into your realm of loveliness and do it gently..this shall be your challenge for now..there is a way and just think about it and it will come to you maybe not so obviously to her but it will happen everytime i have had that dilemma i found it an opportunity to convert one more person to looking beyond the box to a fantastic way of life..i see you as princess and so do the people you work with and who is one person to not see that?? it is time to work the royalness you have on her and make her want to curtsey your loyal lady-in-waiting mary
    4345 days ago
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